RANDOM UPDATE

*That shit is so HOT!!!!.....
*Yall sleepin on Hassan, he got flows...
* I was sleepin on Hassan....
*"Hassan, Hassan, Hassan,Hassan, Hassan, cause he spits HOT FIRE!!"
*The beat is the "COLDEST"

*Its cold as hell outside...
*SIKE!!!
*I've been colder....
*They was actin like it was really cold outside....
*" It's a cold winter/Y'all niggaz better bundle up/And I bet it be a hotter summer/..."-Freeway
*What they kno bout 3,4, maybe even five layers of clothing?...
*And tempurtures of 15 degrees with a WIND CHILL of -1.
*They don't even talk about WIND CHILL down here...
*I was hoping they closed my job today, due to the freezing rain and non-sticking snow....
*I'm built for this....
*A Hoodie, a thermal, a tee, hat and my jacket...and I'm woody....

*My job so ghetto...and so am I, right along wit it...
*They say I talk white....
*I can't help that I annuciate all my syllables, even slang and chopped up words...*lol*
*Thanks Ms. Sharpe(my ghetto ass Freshman English teacher love her to death)...

*I am so manish...
*I need to quit....
*Before I catch a sexual harrassment lawshit...
*Sike, they want me to harrass them...sexually...
*There's an 90% chance I won't harrass them sexually the way they want...
*Does that make me a dick-tease?...*lol*

*Puddy and I broke up again and this time its forreal....*lol*
*No seriously....
*He think he still in high school...
*I forgot how to act when I was in high school...
*He crept up on me, saw a dude's email and went off the deep end...
*Granted, he's very attractive and been tryna get at me...
*Granted we be "blowin big on lunch, living in da sky" at lunchtime...*lol*
*I gotta "live in da sky" on that dumb ass phone, dealing with them dumb ass people....fuckin pricks....

*However, I had no intentions on fuckin with dude on that level....
*Although he shot his shot....

*Puddy text messaging me at 3am......talkin shit....
*I tell that lil nigga get ya mind right and ya game tight, the next morning...
*Not thats words exactly, add a lot of [expletives] and then you got it...
*The night before, he's having wet dreams about me....
*We talkin bout gettin it on and poppin....
*Then this....

*I quit playin this bullshit...
*"They are what we thought they were..."-Dennis Green (Cardinals Coach)
*He is what I know he was...a stoopid lil boy....
*I'll holla at him in bout 9 more years when he got a lil more game about himself.....
*JERK!!!

*I can't believe I dated someone with a "Booty-Do"....*lol*
*I was really dating a huge cock, and boy will I miss it....

"You kno you give good brain like you graduated from a good school"
-Weezy Fuckin Baby and Please Say Da Fuckin Baby

****EDITED***** Dec.4 2006 1:23am
*We got back together.....but he got fired.
*Thats so sad, I'm gone miss him at work....
*Walking pass my desk, flashing me looks....
*Leaving notes on my desk....
*Now who's gonna get my ice?....
*Work ain't the same without him....
*Now who will help me get through the monotony of work?....
*He ain't the finest or the sexiest (he's skinny like Snoop Dogg)...but I like his swagger, his style, his country and his views on religion....he too young to think like he does...
*Plus he "a nigga that ain't never had shit...."-Juvenile
*I can't fuck wit silver spoon fed ass niggas.....I can't relate....

*Why can't I sleep? Why am I not, looking forward to going to work....and Who am I dreaming about, when I am sleep?






































****I took the pic away, GeorgiaPeach roasted to so bad...*lol* I ain't trippin, she ain't the only one....****

I really cut for dude......

THANKSGIVING WEEKEND UPDATE

SweetPotato Pie, Rolls, Cranberry Sauce

2 Whole Lemon/Rosemary Chickens, Yams, Gravy, Macaroni Bake, Dressing...

Dressing, Mac Bake, Potato Salad w/ Deviled Eggs

The Chicken Fell right off da bones...
I Began cooking Wednesday night after I got off of work at 8pm.
I stayed up til 6am preparing the food and cleaning.
I woke up Thursday at 1230pm to complete my feast at 7pm.
So yes I was tired and then I had to work the next day....

RobMack came to the D and I ain't even get to kick it with him....
Sorry Rob, I had all intentions on doing something Sunday, but some shit went down at the crib on Sunday and is still going down....
I can't talk about it here....but sometimes I wonder, I should have stuck it out in the Chi or tore my ass to Minnesota as planned....

Right now, I'm between a rock and a hard place....
I contemplated suicide....but it was only a thought, I could never leave my son behind...
Nor will I let SATAN defeat me....
But I can say this, I'm not afraid to die....

Speaking of death, RIP Trizzy, she was a beautiful person inside and out....she will be missed!
Her insightfulness, her joy, passion, and loving spirit.
I didn't know her personally but my heart sinks just to know she isn't with us anymore...

Derry's father also passed this weekend....
Which made me ponder..
My parents may not be my favorite people in my life and vice versa, but I wouldn't know what to do without them......

KOSMO KRAMER IS A RACIST

THAT WAS SOME HOE ASS SHIT!!!

MELO!!

1 WORD

So I received a text, telling me to describe a person in one word.
Then forward to 20 people and see how many responses you get....

Responses:
Different
Fiery- Hassan
Freak
Crazy
Resilient
Beautiful-My cousin the Marine, he returned safely from Iraq!
Beautiful inside and out-GeorgiaPeach.
Stunning-My daddy (Stuntin like my daddy..*lol*)
***SNEAKY****
Fine...

Blog Fam, describe me in one word.... I'll love to hear your responses....

JUST PICS

My homemade, "Chili con Carne".....
I took a pic cause I thought it was so picturesque.
It tasted better, than it looked...






























Imma stop callin my dad, dad, he for now on, is my big brother....BTW, I hate this pic of me...so I had to post this one... I could pass for a boy, can't I?....*lol*


Ok, now my dad, i mean big bro, looks silly in this pic... I had to even it out....

















I look so hard on this pic...hard as in, stud, dyke-ish....
The sun was in my eyes, but I do look like this when shit is bothering me, maybe a bit more troubled.














Thats all for now, I have more pics, but......
Well.....
Ya know....
Those ain't foe everybody....

DAMN ITS BEEN 11 Days

*A picture of a picture....
*Yall see my tan?
*Me and Kaeven, have the same nose....
*He's so beautiful....
*His bad ass, he broke my phone....
*It was halfway almost broke, but he completely broke it.
*Now I gotta get a new second phone.


*I don't have bankers hours so my time on the blog is very limited.

*Also considering, I can't use the internet at work....

*Where did I leave off last?
*November 1st
*Puddy #2, the youngin and I got back together....*lol*
*So he was upset about me leaving him at the bus stop, telling him to erase my number, and return my picture.
*So after exchanging words through text messaging....I tell him I'm coming over his house and I'm spending the night.
*He still tries to act hard, but in the long run, it was a go....

*I meet him at the train station and we take the long trek to OakCliff....
*Upon arrival, he tells me his sister was asking about me, and to top it off, his mother seems happy to see me, greeting me with a hug....
*She tells me not to go in his room yet, so she can clean it first....

*??????????????????????????????????????????????????????

*Anyway....*lol*

*We chill and smoke blunts in the living room.....

*I felt at home, hell they ghetto as hell.
*So everything was all good....
*You know how some mothers want mama's boys, and try to control they life.
*Nah, he love his "T-Jones" to death, but she just on her own little demo....

*We get nasty and I have to keep it down, cause his mother is in her room, which is across the hall.
*Especially in the early morning, while people are sleeping, namely his mother, in the adjoining room.
*Don't you just love, crusty eye booger, slobby, mornin' breath mouth, sneaky, keep it down people are sleeping,before you go to work, sex??????.....*lol*

*Just don't breathe in my face and I won't breathe in yours....okay?

*lol*

*We break up for 2 days, make up...

*Then we broke up again, cause I cussed him out something bad, cause he tried to cuss me....*lol*

*Two days later, the first day he ignored me, the next day I ignored him. Now he wants to talk........

*We kiss and make up.
*Guess who's at the store, privy to our making up.....
*Yes, him again....He calls my name.....
*I knew I heard someone calling me......
*He calls my phone 10 mins later, "BITCH IMMA KILL YOU!.....thats that same nigga from last time"

*THE NEXT DAY
*He kills that pussy.....
*He made sweet love to me, like I never had it before.....mmmmmmm...nice, slow and nasty.....*lol*
*I return to work, high from dick and weed.
*Some attractive guy rubs my hand as he shakes it.
*Youngin sees, and now is mad at me....*lol*
*I tell him some good shit, and its all good again.
*Til I tell him no mo pussy.....cause I'm not having sex til I lose some weight....I'm fat....where I shouldn't be fat...

*Which brings us to today....

*I jogged 30 minutes, lifted some weights and did some situps....
*I gotta stay lookin young so I can pull the young ones.....*lol*

My running shoes are the best.....I still can't run 30 minutes straight, just cause I have them on....

*The BEARS play the GIANTS, with Tiki Barber fine ass, that nigga dat deal.
*The BEARS lost their first game....7-1.....and I hope this isn't the second....
*They way the GIANTS whupped on the COWBOYS, I'm a little scared....

*Well, I have to go put my dick beaters to work....
*I got to start twisting my hair.....
*Oh lord....

*OH YEA, I FORGOT
*The Punisher aka the old Puddy, texts me in the late booty call hours of the night wanting me to explain why I flipped out on him....
*I should just tell him, it wasn't me, that was Insanely...
*Now he is mad at me cause I don't want to talk about it, and cause I sent him those naked pics....
*lol*

Rap vs Old School
*Rap is destroying our youth, in turn, destroying the bond between male/female relationships.
*Niggas and rap don't love females no more....
*"I hate you BITCH"-Z Ro
*What happened to the days when all niggas talked about was loving they woman, or how they were so heartbroken that they women left them...
*Where are the days when men weren't afraid to proclaim their love for their woman, without looking or feeling soft, for being in love.
*"Its You That I Need"-Enchantment
*"My Whole World Ended"-David Ruffin
*Speaking of David Ruffin, David Ruffin Jr. is fine as hell!
*"I Want A Love I Can Feel"-Temptations
*"Its All Over"- Ohio Players
*I mean damn, even Slick Rick pimpin ass, ain't afraid to rap love songs of being heartbroken..
*"Mistakes of a Woman in Love with Other Men"- Slick Rick
*Rap got niggas mentality all fucked up.
*They think they pimps, we don't love these hoes, etc.

*The New Puddy
*The Old Puddy will be referred to as the Punisher...
*Those of you who watch Seinfeld, knows that Elaine and Puddy always break up, to make up.
*Thats me and the 19 year old.
*We get into a petty argument and not talk to each other...
*Then the next day, we play a game of basketball and we cool again.
*I call it "Love and Basketball".
*But this time, I think he is really hurt.
*I told him, "We on Ice".
*The next day he doesn't speak to me all day.
*So since he ignored me all day, I went into FUCK IT mode.
*I had to speak to Pooby about some business..so I had him to meet me at the bus stop after work.
*"We don't talk on the phone cause it might stick/Gotta play for the 7 call it Mike Vick"-Young Jeezy
*Mind you since he didn't speak to me all day, I didn't think he was riding the bus home with me, but he did and he saw me talking to Pooby, as well as, hug him as a greeting and a goodbye.
*To top it all off, this dude at work, that he suspected me of liking, pulled up to the bus stop (once I was done conducting business with Pooby) and offered me a ride home.
*So now young'n is standing at the bus stop all alone, watching me drive off with some other nigga.
*Well he should never ignored me all day....
*"I will not be ignored!"
*Now he's really not talking to me...he'll get over it.
*Besides, he's still young, he still don't "know his booty from his butthole"...*lol*
*Thats just so funny to me.

*There's this white guy at work who is kinda cute to me.
*He tried to roast me and call me Andelle from "The Parkers"
*So I called him, "Sir Cul de Sac" cause thats how his receding hairline looks...
*Everyone who was privy and who knew what a Cul de sac was, died from laughter.
*It hurt his feelings so much he cut his head bald...*lol*
*My dad says he will kick me out if I date a white guy and if a white guy comes to his house for me, he's gonna fuck him up...
*I doubt I can sleep with a white guy, but whats wrong with kickin it...
*Ok, I'm waiting for yall to say, I sold out...
*But I didn't and I won't....

*Why was this gay ass, dick in da booty ass white dude, on the bus with his boxer shorts on backwards? His nasty ass....*LMAO*

*Am I crazy or what?
* I let my dad and my son take turns punching me in the stomach and the arms....
*I'm a glutton for pain.
*Kaeven got a nice punch on him...
*My arms and stomach weren't sore the next day surprisingly....but I did feel a slight sting while they were punching me.


*I talked to the first Puddy, aka The Punisher, yesterday, after weeks and weeks of text messaging convos, drunk texting on both of our behalf, and playing phone tag.
*I sent him a picture of my bald shaven vagina...*lol*
*Yall were right, when yall said he'll come around....

*But I got my plate full right now...
*I hate that the Virgo is married, so he's off limits but he won't leave me alone...
*The guy who drove me home last night, is an R&B nigga, so he's the lovey dovey type...
*I can't be with him, I know I will do him wrong, cause I can tell by his walk, he's not holdin where its supposed to be swollen...

*Is it cool to say I'm in love/lust with a 19 year old?
*Well I am...too bad.