First of all, I just want to thank everyone who commented on my previous post.
Thanks for all the support, believe it or not, you guys have motivated me.
I appreciate that.
2 more days this week will put me at 5 days....
I wouldn't been able to do it without reading you guy's comments daily.
THANKS AGAIN!!!
I feel GREAT!!!!
I moving...
to Dallas.
My mind is made up!
Unless some great job offer comes my way soon.
Overall, I think it would be best for me and my son.
I'm not to fond of the school system there, but I can always supplement Kaeven's homework to make sure he is ahead of the class.
I've been looking at the apartments and for what I pay here, I could have twice as much square feet in a 2bed/2bath, townhome.....
Not to mention, even the bad neighborhoods in Dallas are nowhere in comparison to the "good neighborhoods" in Chicago.
Wherever those "good neighborhoods" exist....
There is no such thing, just areas of lower crime....
The job market is less competitive and the pay rate are higher.
So tell me why am I here, struggling?
When I could have a $16 hr. job right now if I move......
What do I really have here to keep me?
Support?
No.
A family?
No.
A man?
No.
A job?
No.
Friends?
No.
The only thing that will be missed, is the hustle and bussle of the city streets....
If my "so called friends" are really friends, they can always come to the south....
Oh yea, the music will be missed.
Other than that, I can and will be financially able to get my grill...*lol*
And people won't be lookin at me all crazy, cause its the norm in the south....
Don't forget that beautiful tan I will have, which will become my permanent skin color, hopefully, from baking in the Texas sun.....
I have been job and apartment hunting in Dallas.
If all goes well, I'll be outta here by the end of August....
If I don't get shot first......
HEY DO YALL REMEMBER?!?!?!
That TV series, "South Central" with Larenz Tate and Maia Campbell, back in 1994?
I hated when FOX took it off the air after 10 episodes, that was a great show, portraying a single black mom, struggling to raise her children right, in the ghetto....
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Monday, June 12, 2006
GET IT RIGHT FOR THE SUMMER
Two summers ago, I lost a large sum of money, due to the shady doings of my child's father. This prompted me to work out, continuously, to keep from getting that nigga killt or beat badly...
I a saw Ki Toy interview and she stated she worked out, 5 days a week. So I was like bet!!
As I did each and every push-up, reverse push-up, sit-up, lunge, and pilate, I thought of how much I hated my child's father and how I wish he would just do us all a favor and die. This was just the fuel I needed to motive me to get in shape. I had a ritual, before I would partake in my "fun" (smoke, drank) I had to workout for an hour. The "fun" was my reward.
It worked, in 2 weeks, I actually felt healthier and stronger, and other's noticied that I was getting toned. By the end of the summer, my arms was swoller than most of the niggas I knew. (They was "lookin all flabby and shit, like Larry Holmes, nigga back yo bitch ass up and move around for the south", sorry I had to say that, that shit crack me up when Pimp C say that on that TI interlude). My legs were so muscular and tight, I had white bitches admiring my shit. (You know them white volleyball bitches, they thighs be muscular as hell). My strecth marked stomach didn't look as bad with my 5 pack...*lol* Hell, I had so much sexual energy it was crazy!!! I could ride for hours, thats what them thigh muscles do...
Well, now I'm fat. I know, I know, there are a lot of women out there that will be like, "I should smack that skinny hoe" I know my homegirl said the same thang...she was like "I'll show you a fatback, I swear you skinny hoes kill me.."...what I mean is I'm out of shape....
I got arms, instead of guns...( A nigga would see the guns and think twice about pullin it...)
I gotta fat back, instead of a slim waistline to make my butt look bigger...
A roly poly stomach, instead of my 5 pack...
My thighs are just thighs, instead of quadriceps
Above the thighs, my ass could use just a little muscle...not too much...gotta still have the googly moogly...*lol*
So, I am challenging myself to work-out at least 5 days a week, 2 weeks straight. I started Sunday.... So in two weeks , 4 days after its officially "summer" I should see some results on the road to fitness and a lack of a fat back....
WHY????
Why did this dude have a Thunderbird with the "butterfly doors", did you hear me? I said a Thunderbird and it was raggedy as all hell....
Why did this 60 year old man have on a shirt that said, "Pimp Juice"?
Some shit you should just grow out of, some phases you should just let pass you in your old age...
Why did I win on Ebay? I got some classic all white leather Reebok's retail $59.99 for a hot dub ($20) including shipping and handling.... Ebay is my best friend....
Sunday, June 11, 2006
WE CAN'T BE FRIENDS
I've always "prided" myself of being able to maintain an amicable relationship with all of my exes. Well, unfortunately, that streak is now blemished, for my most recent ex doesn't want to be my friend. I don't understand why, it should be the other way around.
I always thought that he was too much into anal sex for his own good. He also knew a little bit too much about the life of transsexuals for his own good. So I tested him.
I went to the corner video store, rented a tranny movie and had it queued up. All the while, I told him to met me at a bar, so we could role play. The bar was a gay bar. Needless to say, he failed those tests. For one, he was comfortable in the gay setting and secondly, he allowed me to give him oral sex while we watched the tranny movie.
QUESTION???FOR ALL THE STRAIGHT GUYS OUT THERE....
1. How would you react if your girlfriend told you to meet her at a bar and once you arrived you found out it was gay?
2. How would you react to your girlfriend renting a tranny movie and asking you to watch it with her, while she gives you head? Would your dick get hard?
Numerous of verified, "straight men" would've never spent more than 1 minute in the gay bar and would've told me to watch that damn movie alone, well that didn't happen.
Although he failed the test, I remained in the relationship for reasons of convenience. I cut out all extracurricular sex activities and told him to find someone else to "take it up the butt". Besides, he was well hung and that shit was painful before it began to be pleasurable. I asked him to let me hit him in the ass since he always wanted me to do it for him, so he could see how it felt.
Recently, since we have been separated, we had no sex. This gave me the opportunity to ask for anything and I received it all, because he wanted sex, sex, and sex. All I had to do was talk about how much I wanted anal sex and he would get aroused, giving me whatever I wanted.
Once, I did a strip tease for him and popped him for $50. When he came over the next time, he wanted another strip tease, but I wasn't drunk so I wasn't in the mood....*lol*
So in his quest to have sex with me, he told me he would do anything I wanted. If I wanted a 3some with him and another guy, he would oblige. But still, I wasn't feeling him to be involved with a 3some with him....
So, I gave him another test. This time he failed with flying colors.
I told him my fantasy was to have a 3some with a tranny(lie). He said it was a GO. I then asked him what would he do with the tranny. He said he would let the tranny suck him off and he would ass fuck him.....WHOA!!!! I even threw in that I wanted to see him suck the tranny and he said he would....
OK HE'S GAY!!! I kept these thoughts to myself, knowing that would be the last conversation with him and he will never be allowed around my son again....
I don't care if a woman hasn't fucked you in a year, you are not going to do some gayshit just to get in her pants....
For the last 2 years, I have been with someone on the DL...that is sickening!!! Now I never want to date again, until people can be honest with what they truly want....
I was his cover for his gay tendencies.
On Memorial Day weekend, he called me trying to spend time with me and my son. I told him, "No, I'm not on shit today". He then began talkin shit, saying I need to get out the house, whoo whoo whoo....I said, "If I feel like it I will...", he pissed me off, basically, cause I didn't want to see him, so I hung up on him.
That Tuesday, I sent him an email, saying, "Thanks for pissing me off that day, it made me get up, get out and have some fun. I even managed to get a backeotomy (our code for I got my back broke in)."
Every since that email, I haven't heard from him since....
I knew that all I had to do was tell him I had been getting hit off, to let him know that what we had was over.....
However, I would be his friend, now knowing he's gay as pink bunny slippers.
But he doesn't want to be my friend knowing, that guy on the picture (PCC) has been and still is hitting me off...
OH WELL, I'm just glad I didn't move with him permanently and get married to that gay, I mean guy....
All I'm saying here, is keep it real and the world will respect you for your realness. ...
FYI: And yes, I've been tested, I get tested every six months....
I always thought that he was too much into anal sex for his own good. He also knew a little bit too much about the life of transsexuals for his own good. So I tested him.
I went to the corner video store, rented a tranny movie and had it queued up. All the while, I told him to met me at a bar, so we could role play. The bar was a gay bar. Needless to say, he failed those tests. For one, he was comfortable in the gay setting and secondly, he allowed me to give him oral sex while we watched the tranny movie.
QUESTION???FOR ALL THE STRAIGHT GUYS OUT THERE....
1. How would you react if your girlfriend told you to meet her at a bar and once you arrived you found out it was gay?
2. How would you react to your girlfriend renting a tranny movie and asking you to watch it with her, while she gives you head? Would your dick get hard?
Numerous of verified, "straight men" would've never spent more than 1 minute in the gay bar and would've told me to watch that damn movie alone, well that didn't happen.
Although he failed the test, I remained in the relationship for reasons of convenience. I cut out all extracurricular sex activities and told him to find someone else to "take it up the butt". Besides, he was well hung and that shit was painful before it began to be pleasurable. I asked him to let me hit him in the ass since he always wanted me to do it for him, so he could see how it felt.
Recently, since we have been separated, we had no sex. This gave me the opportunity to ask for anything and I received it all, because he wanted sex, sex, and sex. All I had to do was talk about how much I wanted anal sex and he would get aroused, giving me whatever I wanted.
Once, I did a strip tease for him and popped him for $50. When he came over the next time, he wanted another strip tease, but I wasn't drunk so I wasn't in the mood....*lol*
So in his quest to have sex with me, he told me he would do anything I wanted. If I wanted a 3some with him and another guy, he would oblige. But still, I wasn't feeling him to be involved with a 3some with him....
So, I gave him another test. This time he failed with flying colors.
I told him my fantasy was to have a 3some with a tranny(lie). He said it was a GO. I then asked him what would he do with the tranny. He said he would let the tranny suck him off and he would ass fuck him.....WHOA!!!! I even threw in that I wanted to see him suck the tranny and he said he would....
OK HE'S GAY!!! I kept these thoughts to myself, knowing that would be the last conversation with him and he will never be allowed around my son again....
I don't care if a woman hasn't fucked you in a year, you are not going to do some gayshit just to get in her pants....
For the last 2 years, I have been with someone on the DL...that is sickening!!! Now I never want to date again, until people can be honest with what they truly want....
I was his cover for his gay tendencies.
On Memorial Day weekend, he called me trying to spend time with me and my son. I told him, "No, I'm not on shit today". He then began talkin shit, saying I need to get out the house, whoo whoo whoo....I said, "If I feel like it I will...", he pissed me off, basically, cause I didn't want to see him, so I hung up on him.
That Tuesday, I sent him an email, saying, "Thanks for pissing me off that day, it made me get up, get out and have some fun. I even managed to get a backeotomy (our code for I got my back broke in)."
Every since that email, I haven't heard from him since....
I knew that all I had to do was tell him I had been getting hit off, to let him know that what we had was over.....
However, I would be his friend, now knowing he's gay as pink bunny slippers.
But he doesn't want to be my friend knowing, that guy on the picture (PCC) has been and still is hitting me off...
OH WELL, I'm just glad I didn't move with him permanently and get married to that gay, I mean guy....
All I'm saying here, is keep it real and the world will respect you for your realness. ...
FYI: And yes, I've been tested, I get tested every six months....
Thursday, June 08, 2006
BIG MAMA's HOUSE
I'm playing Big Mama.
I have my son and his 2 cousin's (5 and 2).
This is good practice.
They aren't even giving me any problems.
Kaeven is happy that he has someone to "play with in his room".
I can just hear him now, once they are gone...
"Ma, I don't have anyone to play with in my room...."
Now that I have all these kids, I've realized, that one day, I may want some more.
However, I would like some support, therefore, I don't see that happenning until I'm married....
Also, I would definitely examine my mate's family structure before entering such an agreement.
No need of having more children without a grandmother or grandfather.
Anyway...
I almost cried last night for the 2 year old.
He was premature and his mother smoked cigarettes while pregnant with him.
Now he has no belly button and a feeding tube sticking out the side of his stomach.
POOR BABY!!
Anyway...
My days are filled with smiles and joy that these children are bringing me.
I always thought I hated kids, well, it turns out I don't.
Children aren't unruly, you just have to take time to talk to them.
I enjoy being a nurturer and a provider.
This morning we had silver dollar pancakes, eggs, and beef sausage.
This afternoon, we'll play school and go to the park.
The good thing about these kids is, I can take them home.....*lol*
This also bought me a free child care pass.
Now their mother will return the favor and keep Kaeven for a few days...
Lord knows I need a break....
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
666
"And he causeth all, both small and great, rich and poor, free and bond, to receive a mark in their right hand, or in their foreheads: And that no man might buy or sell, save he that had the mark, or the name of the beast, or the number of his name. Here is wisdom. Let him that hath understanding count the number of the beast: for it is the number of a man; and his number is Six hundred threescore and six."
Revelation 13:16-18
I remember being 11, when my father first told me and my sister the story of Revelation scaring the living hell out of us.
"Next Tuesday will be 6/06/06. June 6, 2006 will be a big day for conspiracy and end-of-the-world theorists. LiveScience.com reports:
With 06/06/06 looming (June 6, 2006), authorities in some cities are worrying prophecy theorists or hate groups might read something ominous into the date and use it as an excuse to stir tension. Some expectant mothers are making birthing appointments to ensure they avoid the date, according to The Sunday Times in London.
And for others, it is a marketing opportunity. 20th Century Fox's remake of "The Omen" and Ann Coulter's book, "Godless: The Church of Liberalism," will both come out June 6. .....While some Armageddon believers fear that 6/6/06 will be "a day of satanic power" that may be marked by a comet hitting the Earth, others believe that the world is coming closer to what is widely known as "the rapture" -- the moment the Lord calls the Christian faithful home and millions of born-again evangelicals will suddenly disappear from the Earth, leaving non-believers behind."
Why does religion scare you into belief?
Do we believe in JC because of fear of the unknown or because we just have faith?
Or were you scared into believing in him?
Do you think anything is going to happen on June 6, 2006?
Monday, June 05, 2006
TAGGED TWO TIMES (ANSWERS)
Rules of this Meme: 1. You can only say YES or NO. 2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone sends you messages/comments and asks!
Side note: You better ask me questions or I'll log in as anonymous and ask myself. Yes or No just doesn't suffice for some of these questions. I need to explain what had happened was... (Like T. Cas said...*lol*, I'm serious too.) The answers in bold someone better ask or I will ask myself....*lol*
Questions:
1. Taken a picture naked? yes
2. Painted your room? yes
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? yes, come on guys, yall know I'm a very experimental person. I went through a phase where I thought I wanted to be gay. I thought I could give up on men. WRONG. I stuck one foot inside the world and I never want to go back.
4. Drove a car? yes
5. Danced in front of your mirror? yes
6. Have a crush? Yes
7. Been dumped? yes
8. Stole money from friend? no
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? yes
10. Been in a fist fight? yes
11. Snuck out of your house?no
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? yes
13. Been arrested? no
14. Made out with a stranger?no.
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? yes
16. Left your house with out telling your parents? no
17. Had a crush on your neighbor?
YES! PCC was my neighbor in 2004. I hated him at first. Light-skinned, stuck-up, drug-dealer. I even contemplated calling the cops on him. I didn't want him bringing heat to my block, because I began to notice all the flashy cars belonging to other drug dealers coming on my block and going to his house. I worked as an agent. I knew his every move, what time he left out to what time he came in the house. All that watching, turned into a crush.
18. Ditched work to do something more fun? yes
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? yes
20. Seen someone die? yes
21. Been on a plane? yes
22. Kissed a picture? yes
23. Slept in until 3PM? yes
24. Love someone or miss someone right now? yes
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? yes
26. Made a snow angel? yes
27. Played dress up? yes
28. Cheated while playing a game? yes
29. Been lonely? yes
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? yes
31. Been to a club? yes
32. Felt an earthquake? no
33. Touched a snake? yes
34. Ran a red light? yes
35. Been suspended from school? yes
36. Been late to work everyday for a month? no.
37. Been in a car accident? yes
38. Hated the way you look? yes, I always have my insecure moments because American society doesn't accept natural beauty. But when you have your 4 year old son telling you, you won't fall in love, until your hair is "relaxed" that's crazy... I would expect that from someone older who've been brainwashed into believing beauty is straight hair, blue eyes, but not from him.....He got me almost to the point of perming my hair.....
39. Witnessed a crime? yes
40. Pole danced? YES! On my 25th birthday I had my party at a strip club. Hassan was there, but he didn't see the pole dance...HA!! Once Hassan left I wilded out!!!! I was outside my body that night. In the VIP section of the club they have two small dancefloors with a pole. So I hopped up there with a towel, wiped off the pole, as I heard some girl say, "I know that's right!", and began to gyrate until security came and told me to get down.....I was stealing the naked hoes' attention...*lol*
41. Been lost? yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? yes
43. Felt like dying? yes
44. Cried yourself to sleep? yes.
45. Ever peed on yourself? Yes
46. Sang karaoke? yes
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? yes, I always tell myself that I'm not going to have sex with PCC anymore....I always tell myself that I'm not going to have sex with Puddy
(like Elaine-Seinfeld- did) but I know if I am ever in his presence it WILL go down. (I keep my distance from Puddy, because he is the marrying type, perfect balance of hood/professional.)They both have GF's is why I tell myself this, but I think my coochie gets even wetter when I think about they girl and they way he doing me is the way he be doing her....I'm nasty, so what!!!
48. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? yes
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? yes
50. Kissed in the rain? yes, my first real boyfriend (real because he was 2 years older and I lived with him, he took care of me.) we planned to kiss in the rain. I didn't mind getting my hair wet that day I had to wash it anyway. It was the most passionate, warm, protective kiss I've ever had. I still remember that day, he made me feel so safe in his arms...
51. Sing in the shower? Yes
52. Made love in a park? yes.
53. Had a dream that you married someone? no, I guess marriage is so not real to me, its not even worth a dream. Obviously, my subconscious mind doesn't want to be married....Its a nice thought, only if I can be married when its convienent for me....*lol*
54. Glued your hand to something? no
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? no
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? no
57. Been a cheerleader? no
58. Sat on a roof top? yes
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? no
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? yes
61. Played chicken? yes
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? no
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? yes
64. Broken a bone? no
65. Been easily amused? yes
66. Laugh so hard you cried? yes
67. Mooned/flashed someone? no
68. Cheated on a test? yes
69. Forgotten someone's name? yes
70. Slept naked? yes
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? no
72. Have you ever snuck into a movie? Yes
73. Blacked out from drinking? yes, on my 25th birthday, like I said, I was outside my body that night, but if you can't fall back on ya birthday then when can you? I don't remember what I was drinking...all I remember is leaving the strip club, acting a fool in the car, dancing in the car with my booty out,(I guess I did moon/flash someone...*lol*) getting my coochie ate in the backseat by my G'. After my G' made me cum, I vomited and passed out. I remember waking up to my G' carrying me inside the hotel with one shoe on. Then the next morning, I woke up to the bed shaking from him and his GF doing it. I woke up with just my underwear on, looking like where the fuck am I. They told me I had been knocked out since I got my coochie ate, that was some tongue lashing....
74. Played a prank on someone? yes
74. Gone to a late night movie? yes
76. Made love to anything not human?
YES!Vibrators aren't human, you dog fuckers...*lol* Yall thought I was gone say some nasty shit....like I fuck horses....*lol*
76. Failed a class? yes
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? yes, after reviewing Ghetto Gaggers, this I am... I didn't know what I was doing is called that...I do it to myself....my eyes watering, mascara running, mouth watery, mouth full, literally choking myself purposely. I like it that way....(I know thats a bit graphic...)
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? no
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? yes
81. Do you celebrate the 4th of July? no
82. Thrown strange objects? yes
83. Felt like killing someone? yes
84. Thought about running away? yes
85. Ran away? no
86. Did drugs? Yes
87. Had detention and not attend it? no
88. Been a bully? No
89. Made a parent cry? yes, Once I became of age and no longer feared talking back to my parents I let them hear it as to why #35,43, 84, 86, even was a factor in my life and where they went wrong. Making them admit to fucked up-ness within themselves....I didn't get this way by myself.... but its up to me to take my experiences and roll with them. But that doesn't mean that I will not tell them where they fucked up and let them know that I would never do my child that way.
90. Cried over someone? yes
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? yes
92. Dated someone more than once? yes
93. Have a dog?
no, I hate dogs, "I grab a dog...then I stick my foot up a dog's ass, like BANG! BANG! BANG!up a dog's ass, its my pleasure..."...*lol*
94. Own an instrument? no.
95. Been in a rap or singing group? no
96. Drank 10 sodas in a day? no
97. Broken a cd? yes
98. Shot a gun? no, You would think I have right? Wrong. All of the times I held a gun, it was not the time or place to be letting off shots. Either I didn't have a sitter on the days someone said I could bust they gun, or it was too early in the day. I know PCC will let me let off some shots as well as My G', but I haven't asked. Now, I have had a gun put to my head. I have pulled a gun on someone before, I even played with an empty gun (that don't count do it?) What about witnessing a crime with a gun, where I was an accessory? Does that count?...*lol*
99. Had sex with more than one person in a weeks time? yes,I don't like doing it like that, I usually like to wait a week at least before doing it with someone else. But I was cheating on my BF, so I had to give him some so he wouldn't get suspicious.
100. Laughed so hard you farted? yes
Whoever wants to be tagged, feel free to tag yourself and leave me a comment that you tagged yourself, thanks....
SECOND TAG:
1. If you could be doing what you really want to be doing for a living, what would it be?
I'd be a real estate developer.
2. If you could slap the shit out of any famous person, alive or dead, who would it be?
Carmelo Anthony dumb ass when he be playing like a jerk off...
3. What's the dumbest decision you've made in the past 5 years?
Staying in a relationship with my son's sperm donor...
4. Give up one for a year: (good) sex or (good) music.
Music has the power to heal in ways sometimes sex can't, that's gonna be one tough year, dick-less.
5. Dudes, would you rather have a big dick or a great sense of humor?
Ladies, nice tits & azz or common sense?
Why can't I have it all?
6. So you've been invited to an all expense paid Blogger Prom in The Bahamas. You're sitting at the bar on the beach. Which blogger do you want to join you for hours of good convo?
Mmmmm.....
I'll chop up game with my wrappie, GeorgiaPeach...
We got a lot of crazy stories to tell each other...*lol*
7. Which blogger would you most like to cuddle with on the beach? (and don't defer to your current signif other either. Infidelity won't count against you. Duh.)
Cuddle? I only like cuddling with someone after "the deed" depending on who it is....
So who would I most likely sex on the beach?...*lol*
Ummmm......
I can't really say, chemistry happens when one is face to face. I can't say who I would have chemistry for over the internet, that's one reason why I don't internet date.
I gotta see how a man walks, that speaks in loud volumes of his sexual prowess.
With that said, the only male blogger I've seen walk is....
Hassan.
And no, I don't like his walk, that's like my brother....
8. You're going on a 5 hour road trip...which 5 CDs do you bring?
Tunnel CD
Funkmaster Flex ( I NEED THIS SHIT RIGHT NOW!!!)
Dude CD
Devin (THIS TOO!!!)
The King Of Crunk & BME Recordings Present Lil Scr CD
Trillville (THIS THREE!!!)
Murda Muzik CD
Mobb Deep (FOUR!!!)
Guerrilla Warfare CD
Hot Boys (FIVE!!!)
Of course, I would need to RE COP these first....before the road trip.
9. Would you rather bury your children young or have your children bury you young?
Thats not a decison for me to make nor can I sit here and contemplate it, because the thoughts of both are equally painful to me.
10. What's your biggest insecurity?
Which one? Oh the biggest...
I always worry if a being a good parent.
11.What's the first blog you read every day...or however often you read them? (And I swear to God, don't be saying mine just cuz I'm the one asking...unless of course you really mean it. lol)
I used to start with GeorgiaPeach, but she been on bullshit lately.
Now, I check out Insanity.
12. When's the last time you peed your pants?
I hate using public restrooms, so I was 14 in an arcade, refusing to go to the restroom, thinking I could hold it til I got home, (after the show, we were in the arcade waiting for the movie to began), I played pinball as pissed rolled down my legs and I stood there for a moment. Luckily I was with my mother, she went to the dollar store and copped me something, dry...
13. Which was better, your first kiss or your first pay check?
My first paycheck came not to far after my first kiss. Money over bitches....
14. Do you have kids? Want kids?
Of course...
15. You get dropped off at home after the office holiday party by your bitch azz boss that you can't effing stand...you exit the car and he peels out, runs a red light at your corner and rolls up an unsuspecting midget. The next day the midget watch groups are on TV outraged at the heartless hit and run, and are calling for any witnesses to please come fwd...that half dead midget has a family at home waiting on C-mas presents. Would you take $1000 hush money? $500? $100? A six pack?
If it was my boss that got me fired along with her ass, the reason why I'm unemployed now...I would gather them midgets up, take them to her abode, and watch them as they commence to whip her ass....
16. Live the rest of your life without your eyebrows or your fingernails?
That would hurt no fingernails, you can't put acrylic over skin, but I can always draw on my eyebrows. Hell, some bitches shave off all they eyebrows to draw new ones....
17. What makes you angry?
Whiny white people, what the fuck you whining for?
My son.
My BD.
The position of our people and how its not getting better, but only worst.
18. What makes you horny?
Greenery.
Nasty thoughts.
Porn.
Real Sex on HBO.
Vodka.
The summer heat.
19. What makes you nervous?
Timed test.
Public speaking.
Being in the presence of someone I really like.
20. What makes you smile?
My son.
Friends.
My sister.
Tagged:
Free Agent with the hump in the trunk (She asked to be tagged)
Honey Libra, (You also asked...)
RobMack (act like he don't feel like blogging)
Dynasty
Thoughts of a Southern Girl
BossMack (He always cracks me up).
Insanity.
Side note: You better ask me questions or I'll log in as anonymous and ask myself. Yes or No just doesn't suffice for some of these questions. I need to explain what had happened was... (Like T. Cas said...*lol*, I'm serious too.) The answers in bold someone better ask or I will ask myself....*lol*
Questions:
1. Taken a picture naked? yes
2. Painted your room? yes
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? yes, come on guys, yall know I'm a very experimental person. I went through a phase where I thought I wanted to be gay. I thought I could give up on men. WRONG. I stuck one foot inside the world and I never want to go back.
4. Drove a car? yes
5. Danced in front of your mirror? yes
6. Have a crush? Yes
7. Been dumped? yes
8. Stole money from friend? no
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? yes
10. Been in a fist fight? yes
11. Snuck out of your house?no
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? yes
13. Been arrested? no
14. Made out with a stranger?no.
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? yes
16. Left your house with out telling your parents? no
17. Had a crush on your neighbor?
YES! PCC was my neighbor in 2004. I hated him at first. Light-skinned, stuck-up, drug-dealer. I even contemplated calling the cops on him. I didn't want him bringing heat to my block, because I began to notice all the flashy cars belonging to other drug dealers coming on my block and going to his house. I worked as an agent. I knew his every move, what time he left out to what time he came in the house. All that watching, turned into a crush. 18. Ditched work to do something more fun? yes
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? yes
20. Seen someone die? yes
21. Been on a plane? yes
22. Kissed a picture? yes
23. Slept in until 3PM? yes
24. Love someone or miss someone right now? yes
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? yes
26. Made a snow angel? yes
27. Played dress up? yes
28. Cheated while playing a game? yes
29. Been lonely? yes
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? yes
31. Been to a club? yes
32. Felt an earthquake? no
33. Touched a snake? yes
34. Ran a red light? yes
35. Been suspended from school? yes
36. Been late to work everyday for a month? no.
37. Been in a car accident? yes
38. Hated the way you look? yes, I always have my insecure moments because American society doesn't accept natural beauty. But when you have your 4 year old son telling you, you won't fall in love, until your hair is "relaxed" that's crazy... I would expect that from someone older who've been brainwashed into believing beauty is straight hair, blue eyes, but not from him.....He got me almost to the point of perming my hair.....
39. Witnessed a crime? yes
40. Pole danced? YES! On my 25th birthday I had my party at a strip club. Hassan was there, but he didn't see the pole dance...HA!! Once Hassan left I wilded out!!!! I was outside my body that night. In the VIP section of the club they have two small dancefloors with a pole. So I hopped up there with a towel, wiped off the pole, as I heard some girl say, "I know that's right!", and began to gyrate until security came and told me to get down.....I was stealing the naked hoes' attention...*lol*
41. Been lost? yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? yes
43. Felt like dying? yes
44. Cried yourself to sleep? yes.
45. Ever peed on yourself? Yes
46. Sang karaoke? yes
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? yes, I always tell myself that I'm not going to have sex with PCC anymore....I always tell myself that I'm not going to have sex with Puddy
(like Elaine-Seinfeld- did) but I know if I am ever in his presence it WILL go down. (I keep my distance from Puddy, because he is the marrying type, perfect balance of hood/professional.)They both have GF's is why I tell myself this, but I think my coochie gets even wetter when I think about they girl and they way he doing me is the way he be doing her....I'm nasty, so what!!! 48. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? yes
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? yes
50. Kissed in the rain? yes, my first real boyfriend (real because he was 2 years older and I lived with him, he took care of me.) we planned to kiss in the rain. I didn't mind getting my hair wet that day I had to wash it anyway. It was the most passionate, warm, protective kiss I've ever had. I still remember that day, he made me feel so safe in his arms...
51. Sing in the shower? Yes
52. Made love in a park? yes.
53. Had a dream that you married someone? no, I guess marriage is so not real to me, its not even worth a dream. Obviously, my subconscious mind doesn't want to be married....Its a nice thought, only if I can be married when its convienent for me....*lol*
54. Glued your hand to something? no
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? no
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? no
57. Been a cheerleader? no
58. Sat on a roof top? yes
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? no
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? yes
61. Played chicken? yes
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? no
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? yes
64. Broken a bone? no
65. Been easily amused? yes
66. Laugh so hard you cried? yes
67. Mooned/flashed someone? no
68. Cheated on a test? yes
69. Forgotten someone's name? yes
70. Slept naked? yes
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? no
72. Have you ever snuck into a movie? Yes
73. Blacked out from drinking? yes, on my 25th birthday, like I said, I was outside my body that night, but if you can't fall back on ya birthday then when can you? I don't remember what I was drinking...all I remember is leaving the strip club, acting a fool in the car, dancing in the car with my booty out,(I guess I did moon/flash someone...*lol*) getting my coochie ate in the backseat by my G'. After my G' made me cum, I vomited and passed out. I remember waking up to my G' carrying me inside the hotel with one shoe on. Then the next morning, I woke up to the bed shaking from him and his GF doing it. I woke up with just my underwear on, looking like where the fuck am I. They told me I had been knocked out since I got my coochie ate, that was some tongue lashing....
74. Played a prank on someone? yes
74. Gone to a late night movie? yes
76. Made love to anything not human?
YES!Vibrators aren't human, you dog fuckers...*lol* Yall thought I was gone say some nasty shit....like I fuck horses....*lol*76. Failed a class? yes
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? yes, after reviewing Ghetto Gaggers, this I am... I didn't know what I was doing is called that...I do it to myself....my eyes watering, mascara running, mouth watery, mouth full, literally choking myself purposely. I like it that way....(I know thats a bit graphic...)
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? no
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? yes
81. Do you celebrate the 4th of July? no
82. Thrown strange objects? yes
83. Felt like killing someone? yes
84. Thought about running away? yes
85. Ran away? no
86. Did drugs? Yes
87. Had detention and not attend it? no
88. Been a bully? No
89. Made a parent cry? yes, Once I became of age and no longer feared talking back to my parents I let them hear it as to why #35,43, 84, 86, even was a factor in my life and where they went wrong. Making them admit to fucked up-ness within themselves....I didn't get this way by myself.... but its up to me to take my experiences and roll with them. But that doesn't mean that I will not tell them where they fucked up and let them know that I would never do my child that way.
90. Cried over someone? yes
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? yes
92. Dated someone more than once? yes
93. Have a dog?
no, I hate dogs, "I grab a dog...then I stick my foot up a dog's ass, like BANG! BANG! BANG!up a dog's ass, its my pleasure..."...*lol*94. Own an instrument? no.
95. Been in a rap or singing group? no
96. Drank 10 sodas in a day? no
97. Broken a cd? yes
98. Shot a gun? no, You would think I have right? Wrong. All of the times I held a gun, it was not the time or place to be letting off shots. Either I didn't have a sitter on the days someone said I could bust they gun, or it was too early in the day. I know PCC will let me let off some shots as well as My G', but I haven't asked. Now, I have had a gun put to my head. I have pulled a gun on someone before, I even played with an empty gun (that don't count do it?) What about witnessing a crime with a gun, where I was an accessory? Does that count?...*lol*
99. Had sex with more than one person in a weeks time? yes,I don't like doing it like that, I usually like to wait a week at least before doing it with someone else. But I was cheating on my BF, so I had to give him some so he wouldn't get suspicious.
100. Laughed so hard you farted? yes
Whoever wants to be tagged, feel free to tag yourself and leave me a comment that you tagged yourself, thanks....
SECOND TAG:
1. If you could be doing what you really want to be doing for a living, what would it be?
I'd be a real estate developer.
2. If you could slap the shit out of any famous person, alive or dead, who would it be?
Carmelo Anthony dumb ass when he be playing like a jerk off...
3. What's the dumbest decision you've made in the past 5 years?
Staying in a relationship with my son's sperm donor...
4. Give up one for a year: (good) sex or (good) music.
Music has the power to heal in ways sometimes sex can't, that's gonna be one tough year, dick-less.
5. Dudes, would you rather have a big dick or a great sense of humor?
Ladies, nice tits & azz or common sense?
Why can't I have it all?
6. So you've been invited to an all expense paid Blogger Prom in The Bahamas. You're sitting at the bar on the beach. Which blogger do you want to join you for hours of good convo?
Mmmmm.....
I'll chop up game with my wrappie, GeorgiaPeach...
We got a lot of crazy stories to tell each other...*lol*
7. Which blogger would you most like to cuddle with on the beach? (and don't defer to your current signif other either. Infidelity won't count against you. Duh.)
Cuddle? I only like cuddling with someone after "the deed" depending on who it is....
So who would I most likely sex on the beach?...*lol*
Ummmm......
I can't really say, chemistry happens when one is face to face. I can't say who I would have chemistry for over the internet, that's one reason why I don't internet date.
I gotta see how a man walks, that speaks in loud volumes of his sexual prowess.
With that said, the only male blogger I've seen walk is....
Hassan.
And no, I don't like his walk, that's like my brother....
8. You're going on a 5 hour road trip...which 5 CDs do you bring?
Tunnel CD
Funkmaster Flex ( I NEED THIS SHIT RIGHT NOW!!!) Dude CD
Devin (THIS TOO!!!)The King Of Crunk & BME Recordings Present Lil Scr CD
Trillville (THIS THREE!!!)Murda Muzik CD
Mobb Deep (FOUR!!!)Guerrilla Warfare CD
Hot Boys (FIVE!!!)Of course, I would need to RE COP these first....before the road trip.
9. Would you rather bury your children young or have your children bury you young?
Thats not a decison for me to make nor can I sit here and contemplate it, because the thoughts of both are equally painful to me.
10. What's your biggest insecurity?
Which one? Oh the biggest...
I always worry if a being a good parent.
11.What's the first blog you read every day...or however often you read them? (And I swear to God, don't be saying mine just cuz I'm the one asking...unless of course you really mean it. lol)
I used to start with GeorgiaPeach, but she been on bullshit lately.
Now, I check out Insanity.
12. When's the last time you peed your pants?
I hate using public restrooms, so I was 14 in an arcade, refusing to go to the restroom, thinking I could hold it til I got home, (after the show, we were in the arcade waiting for the movie to began), I played pinball as pissed rolled down my legs and I stood there for a moment. Luckily I was with my mother, she went to the dollar store and copped me something, dry...
13. Which was better, your first kiss or your first pay check?
My first paycheck came not to far after my first kiss. Money over bitches....
14. Do you have kids? Want kids?
Of course...
15. You get dropped off at home after the office holiday party by your bitch azz boss that you can't effing stand...you exit the car and he peels out, runs a red light at your corner and rolls up an unsuspecting midget. The next day the midget watch groups are on TV outraged at the heartless hit and run, and are calling for any witnesses to please come fwd...that half dead midget has a family at home waiting on C-mas presents. Would you take $1000 hush money? $500? $100? A six pack?
If it was my boss that got me fired along with her ass, the reason why I'm unemployed now...I would gather them midgets up, take them to her abode, and watch them as they commence to whip her ass....
16. Live the rest of your life without your eyebrows or your fingernails?
That would hurt no fingernails, you can't put acrylic over skin, but I can always draw on my eyebrows. Hell, some bitches shave off all they eyebrows to draw new ones....
17. What makes you angry?
Whiny white people, what the fuck you whining for?
My son.
My BD.
The position of our people and how its not getting better, but only worst.
18. What makes you horny?
Greenery.
Nasty thoughts.
Porn.
Real Sex on HBO.
Vodka.
The summer heat.
19. What makes you nervous?
Timed test.
Public speaking.
Being in the presence of someone I really like.
20. What makes you smile?
My son.
Friends.
My sister.
Tagged:
Free Agent with the hump in the trunk (She asked to be tagged)
Honey Libra, (You also asked...)
RobMack (act like he don't feel like blogging)
Dynasty
Thoughts of a Southern Girl
BossMack (He always cracks me up).
Insanity.
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
Monday, May 29, 2006
Memorial Day Weekend
This weekend was fulfilling to say the least.
I met fellow blogger, NameLiar (she's just as crazy cool in real life)
at Hassan's family get-together. .
I spoke with fellow blogger,RobMack, to wish him a Happy Birthday. (He sounds as good as he looks...tempting..*lol*)
Ms.Perdie, was in town, but my lame ass didn't have a sitter this weekend.
I saw PCC fine ass, fresh out the shower.
He helped me get my car back running, showed me how to drive my car so that it won't cut off.(I gotta drive with two feet like its a stick shift...)
He got me right, in more ways than one.. ..*lol*(By his own admission)
I know I was waaay outta pocket, for doing it with him in the garage with his BM in the house.
But hey, the sun, the heat, my drought, and him edging me on didn't help.
Before I did that crazy shit, I affirmed that he wasn't trying to get me killt...
He took all precausions, but if she came outside, there would be no way to explain what we were doing in there, all sweaty, huffing, puffing and smiling.
Although, it lasted only 3 minutes, plus one minute of me servicing him and one minute of him admiring and servicing my frontals and posteriors....*lol*
I had jism for lunch....*lol*
"The doctor said I needed a back-e-otomy", and thats exactly what I got...
I found this blog and these quotes while I was searching for a picture of a backeotomey...*lol*
Be still when you have nothing to say; when genuine passion moves you, say what you've got to say, and say it hot.(Fa sho!)
~D. H. Lawrence
(and I thought Paris Hilton made "that's hot" famous)
You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view. (I love this quote)
~Harper Lee
The doctor said I need a backeotomy.~Sir Smoke Alot)
SammyGee Rock
No more nightmares...
Not to mention, my vibrator broke, so I been dealing with this heat dolo.
Saturday, my new one shall arrive, I got it for a great price!!!
I'll be back in business....
Showing my homeboy some love...
Don't NOBODY (Except some of the blog fam) got these wifebeaters...I like wearing shit ain't nobody else wearing...
Like these shoes here...
I gotta get these DVS's....ain't nobody rocking these out here...
These shoes...I gotta have these....I created the color scheme myself...I need these fa sho'..
I met fellow blogger, NameLiar (she's just as crazy cool in real life)at Hassan's family get-together. .
I spoke with fellow blogger,RobMack, to wish him a Happy Birthday. (He sounds as good as he looks...tempting..*lol*)
Ms.Perdie, was in town, but my lame ass didn't have a sitter this weekend.
I saw PCC fine ass, fresh out the shower.
He helped me get my car back running, showed me how to drive my car so that it won't cut off.(I gotta drive with two feet like its a stick shift...)
He got me right, in more ways than one.. ..*lol*(By his own admission)
I know I was waaay outta pocket, for doing it with him in the garage with his BM in the house.
But hey, the sun, the heat, my drought, and him edging me on didn't help.
Before I did that crazy shit, I affirmed that he wasn't trying to get me killt...
He took all precausions, but if she came outside, there would be no way to explain what we were doing in there, all sweaty, huffing, puffing and smiling.
Although, it lasted only 3 minutes, plus one minute of me servicing him and one minute of him admiring and servicing my frontals and posteriors....*lol*
I had jism for lunch....*lol*
"The doctor said I needed a back-e-otomy", and thats exactly what I got...
I found this blog and these quotes while I was searching for a picture of a backeotomey...*lol*
DAILY QUOTES
Be still when you have nothing to say; when genuine passion moves you, say what you've got to say, and say it hot.(Fa sho!)
~D. H. Lawrence
(and I thought Paris Hilton made "that's hot" famous)
You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view. (I love this quote)
~Harper Lee
The doctor said I need a backeotomy.
SammyGee Rock
No more nightmares...
Not to mention, my vibrator broke, so I been dealing with this heat dolo.
Saturday, my new one shall arrive, I got it for a great price!!!
I'll be back in business....
Showing my homeboy some love...
Don't NOBODY (Except some of the blog fam) got these wifebeaters...I like wearing shit ain't nobody else wearing...
Like these shoes here...
I gotta get these DVS's....ain't nobody rocking these out here...
These shoes...I gotta have these....I created the color scheme myself...I need these fa sho'..
Friday, May 26, 2006
Farewell Floyd...
CLICK HERE ONLY IF YOU DARE
(Ok, I fixed the link, my BAD!!)
I didn't feel blogging so I'll just post these pictures to say a farewell....
Damn, you shouldn't be so damn sexy....too bad...We gotta talk...
First let me just kiss the guns....
Mmmmm,so sexy...
We can't do this anymore, Floyd...
I heard about that altercation with your BM, I didn't know you had all them kids...
I don't know for sure, but I'm not trying to find out....
Were you really serious when you said this?
"Bitch, you betta quit playing wit me foe I punch you in yo throat!..."
He look serious, don't he?...*lol*
(Ok, I fixed the link, my BAD!!)
I didn't feel blogging so I'll just post these pictures to say a farewell....
Damn, you shouldn't be so damn sexy....too bad...We gotta talk...
First let me just kiss the guns....
Mmmmm,so sexy...
We can't do this anymore, Floyd...
I heard about that altercation with your BM, I didn't know you had all them kids...
I don't know for sure, but I'm not trying to find out....
Were you really serious when you said this?
"Bitch, you betta quit playing wit me foe I punch you in yo throat!..."
He look serious, don't he?...*lol*
Thursday, May 25, 2006
Lame vs Game
First of all, I would like to make myself a little bit more clear. Some may have misconstrued the fact of me wanting a thug, when in actually I just don't want a lame. I definitely don't want a thug.
Main Entry: thug
Pronunciation: 'th&g
Function: noun
Etymology: Hindi thag, literally, thief
: a brutal ruffian or assassin : GANGSTER, KILLER
I know Gangsters and I know Killers. Now do I want to be actively involved with one, No...
Have I been involved with one? Of course, its always good to have killers on your team, in the time of need.
I just wanted to take the time and further explain what I mean by a lame, thanks Hassan, you gave me more fodder for my blog, cause I was about to shut it down......
LAME VS GAME
A LAME
*Asks a woman to do something for him in a weak, non-authoritative, begging manner, in which it doens't get done.
*Scared to smoke, drank, and ride, in fear of getting caught by the authorities.(TRUE STORY)
*Whenever they see the authorities, they get nervous and stiff.
*Speaks one language, English. In the hood, they are clueless to the vernacular used.
*Approaches a woman and doesn't know what to say and in the process, does or says something goofy. He doesn't get the phone number. He gets played off like a lame.
*Will walk right into a fucked up situation, panic, and not know what to do to get out of it.
*Will punk out in a New York minute. He will run and leave his woman to fend for herself.
*Will get yall fucked up in the hood.
*Will take you down the WRONG street almost getting yall fucked up. (TRUE STORY)
*Allows their woman to talk to him, sideways.
*Tries to control his woman with violence.
*Gets no respect from niggas, even his own niggas.
*Steady try to get back with a female after she dumped him.
*Gets taken for all his little dust and still gets no ass.
*If he does get sex, he gets lame sex, no oral activities.
*Always calling a female and she never calls him.
*Tries hard to look cool.
*Tries to handcuff the pussy.
LAMES, stop laming ya selves out....that's weak, women don't like weak men.
PEEP GAME
*Demands something of a woman in a subtle authoritative manner where the woman doesn't deem it as an order, and the shit gets done.
*Has methods to smoke, drink, and ride, to minimize getting caught slipping.
*Is well rounded and can switch up from English to Ebonics when necessary.
*Doesn't have to approach a woman, she already noticies him, if he does approach her, he does it with finesse.
*Already peeps a fucked up situation, tells his woman to follow his instructions, and he remains calm. (TRUE STORY)
*He ain't no back down ass nigga.
*Chooses his battles wisely, knows some battles should be fought at a later date...
*Knows what part of the city or what streets to avoid in order to avoid unnecessary conflict.
*His woman respects him enough not to talk to him sideways.
*Knows if he has to put his hands on a woman, he will let her go.
*Gets respect from niggas, they honor him.
*Never chase after a female.
*Has no problems getting the drawers without tricking, the female may even trick off on him.
*When he gets sex from a woman, she gives him the whole treatment and then some...
*Will never blow up a female's phone, let's her call when she is ready.
*He is just cool, without trying.
*Knows the golden rule, YOU CAN'T HANDCUFF NO PUSSY, and he lives accordingly.
FEEL FREE TO ADD ON.....
Main Entry: thug
Pronunciation: 'th&g
Function: noun
Etymology: Hindi thag, literally, thief
: a brutal ruffian or assassin : GANGSTER, KILLER
I know Gangsters and I know Killers. Now do I want to be actively involved with one, No...
Have I been involved with one? Of course, its always good to have killers on your team, in the time of need.
I just wanted to take the time and further explain what I mean by a lame, thanks Hassan, you gave me more fodder for my blog, cause I was about to shut it down......
LAME VS GAME
A LAME
*Asks a woman to do something for him in a weak, non-authoritative, begging manner, in which it doens't get done.
*Scared to smoke, drank, and ride, in fear of getting caught by the authorities.(TRUE STORY)
*Whenever they see the authorities, they get nervous and stiff.
*Speaks one language, English. In the hood, they are clueless to the vernacular used.
*Approaches a woman and doesn't know what to say and in the process, does or says something goofy. He doesn't get the phone number. He gets played off like a lame.
*Will walk right into a fucked up situation, panic, and not know what to do to get out of it.
*Will punk out in a New York minute. He will run and leave his woman to fend for herself.
*Will get yall fucked up in the hood.
*Will take you down the WRONG street almost getting yall fucked up. (TRUE STORY)
*Allows their woman to talk to him, sideways.
*Tries to control his woman with violence.
*Gets no respect from niggas, even his own niggas.
*Steady try to get back with a female after she dumped him.
*Gets taken for all his little dust and still gets no ass.
*If he does get sex, he gets lame sex, no oral activities.
*Always calling a female and she never calls him.
*Tries hard to look cool.
*Tries to handcuff the pussy.
LAMES, stop laming ya selves out....that's weak, women don't like weak men.
PEEP GAME
*Demands something of a woman in a subtle authoritative manner where the woman doesn't deem it as an order, and the shit gets done.
*Has methods to smoke, drink, and ride, to minimize getting caught slipping.
*Is well rounded and can switch up from English to Ebonics when necessary.
*Doesn't have to approach a woman, she already noticies him, if he does approach her, he does it with finesse.
*Already peeps a fucked up situation, tells his woman to follow his instructions, and he remains calm. (TRUE STORY)
*He ain't no back down ass nigga.
*Chooses his battles wisely, knows some battles should be fought at a later date...
*Knows what part of the city or what streets to avoid in order to avoid unnecessary conflict.
*His woman respects him enough not to talk to him sideways.
*Knows if he has to put his hands on a woman, he will let her go.
*Gets respect from niggas, they honor him.
*Never chase after a female.
*Has no problems getting the drawers without tricking, the female may even trick off on him.
*When he gets sex from a woman, she gives him the whole treatment and then some...
*Will never blow up a female's phone, let's her call when she is ready.
*He is just cool, without trying.
*Knows the golden rule, YOU CAN'T HANDCUFF NO PUSSY, and he lives accordingly.
FEEL FREE TO ADD ON.....
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
The Lauren London/Nsaneleesane KING Interview....
Here's an excerpt:
Don’t be fooled by the baby face. Sure, actress Lauren London looks PG-friendly, but what the just-turned-21-year-old black-and-white blend craves are R ratings. Violence and sexual themes included, this Los Angeles native is partial to pistol-packing movie men with street-type spidey sense. “There’s no way I should be tougher than my man,” she says. “I can’t go to rough areas and have my man get nervous. That’d be straight bitch!” Gotta love angels with dirty mouths.
So you want a man who’s both honest and thug?
An authentic gangsta—that deletes about half the rap game off your list. I love guys who are street. I won’t even give soft guys a chance. Menace II Society is my shit! Caine was like my first crush. Actually, O-Dog was my true dream guy. I was in love with him, from that opening scene where he pops the convenience-store worker. He had me from that gunshot [laughs]. He was ’hood, and I loved that.
Honesty is the first quality I look for in a man. He has to be able to be honest with his feelings and able to express them to me. He has to be honest with his sexuality as well.
As far as a thug is concerned, I do look for a man with thug qualities. Qualities such as slanging anything other than marijuana, hanging on the block with the homies all day, in and out of jail, are not the qualities I look for in a thug. Bottom line it comes down to knowing how the hood operates, keeping ya guard up, and having a sense of danger and knowing how to get out of jeopordizing situations.
This is where being a thug clashes. Thugs have to maintain a hard exterior and emotions are out of the question. Thugs usually have no book intelligence. Nas said it best, "Make sure he a thug and intelligent too..." Have you ever tried to get deep with a thug? Impossible, depending on the thug... Thugs with intelligence are far, few, and in between.
So dudes without rap sheets need not apply?
I can tell immediately how lame you are. For me, too soft is, after I give you my number, you call every day. “I want to take you to dinner. You’re the future!” Dude, you don’t even know me. You’ve known me for two weeks and you love me? I don’t get that. That kind of rush job might freak me out at 21. I’m not ready for marriage!
I can tell a lame when I see one as well. I can't stand lames, however, I don't want my man to have a rap sheet, but I would expect him to have some problems with the law at one point, got out of the trouble, unscathed, and learn from that experience to not make a career of it. I more so want a "reformed thug". He's been there, done that, but can see the bigger picture and can relate to and educate the younger generation that that's not the route to take.
I definitely don't want a man I can tell what to do and he does it, all the time. Where's the challenge in that?
Smart girl. Monogamy is so overrated. When you have a man—what kind of wifey are you?
Well, it’s funny because one of my dream roles is to be in a movie like Boomerang. The women characters are so strong, and how Robin Givens flipped the script on his ass! That’s so not me, though—that’s why I’d love to play it. I’m so Halle Berry’s character.
Monogamy is definitely overrated, but I can be in a monogamous relationship as long as my partner is as open in his sexuality as I am, that way our lovemaking will never get boring. We will always find new and exciting ways to please each other and fulfill each others fantasies.
As far as being domesticated, yes, I cook, clean, do laundry, tend to the children, etc. No, I don't want to be Susie Homemaker, I will have my own money, job and goals. Therefore, housework will be shared, because the bills will be shared. In a relationship, one hand washes the other. I scratch your back you scratch mine. As long as, there is trust, honesty, and respect, we can work on the rest.....
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
I must GET LAID
Junetenth (Junetenth*lol*) will mark my 2nd month of my penis drought. I wouldn't quite call it a drought, because penis is available...however, I'm just being very stubborn and choosey right now...
I want things a certain way and if I can't have it my way, then it will be no way...
Its the Aquarian in me.
I find myself having these dreams, well nightmares, where everyone else is having sex around me. Everyone else includes my ex, my past lovers, such as Puddy.
The dream with Puddy was crazy. I guess I was a CSI and I had to go view the crime scene which occured at the apartment where I grew up. I was told not to go alone, strict orders, which is why Puddy accompanied me. When we arrived there were no signs of a crime. Once we opened the second door to the bedroom, it was as if we opened Pandora's Box, because a slew of women came out of the woodworks and surrounded Puddy.
That left me alone and wandering about my old apartment. I then noticied an older man and woman talking. Then in seconds they were getting busy. I went to find Puddy or to find some attractive guy to get my groove on with, that's when I opened the door to find some guy eating a girl out. He stopped when he noticied me and I told him, "Don't stop, keep on going, don't mind me..."
Puddy was in the bed next to him, but he never brought his face up from being buried in the girl's cat. So, that left me all alone, with no one to sex. Each one of the 3 men that were there, were coupled off. I have the slightest idea where the rest of the girls went, but I didn't care. I was horny and was trying to find an available, attractive man. To no avail, I forced myself to wake up.
Usually, I have control over my dreams, but I guess since I haven't been had, since I been had, I forgot how to get had....*lol*
Then this morning, I dreamt about my ex in the shower with some sexy Brazilian chic, I went in there pulled back the shower curtain and told him to have a great time....*lol*
I went searching for someone to sex, but to no avail, I woke myself up again.
So something has got to give, I'm tired of these nightmares.....
Firework My Words
I want things a certain way and if I can't have it my way, then it will be no way...
Its the Aquarian in me.
I find myself having these dreams, well nightmares, where everyone else is having sex around me. Everyone else includes my ex, my past lovers, such as Puddy.
The dream with Puddy was crazy. I guess I was a CSI and I had to go view the crime scene which occured at the apartment where I grew up. I was told not to go alone, strict orders, which is why Puddy accompanied me. When we arrived there were no signs of a crime. Once we opened the second door to the bedroom, it was as if we opened Pandora's Box, because a slew of women came out of the woodworks and surrounded Puddy.
That left me alone and wandering about my old apartment. I then noticied an older man and woman talking. Then in seconds they were getting busy. I went to find Puddy or to find some attractive guy to get my groove on with, that's when I opened the door to find some guy eating a girl out. He stopped when he noticied me and I told him, "Don't stop, keep on going, don't mind me..."
Puddy was in the bed next to him, but he never brought his face up from being buried in the girl's cat. So, that left me all alone, with no one to sex. Each one of the 3 men that were there, were coupled off. I have the slightest idea where the rest of the girls went, but I didn't care. I was horny and was trying to find an available, attractive man. To no avail, I forced myself to wake up.
Usually, I have control over my dreams, but I guess since I haven't been had, since I been had, I forgot how to get had....*lol*
Then this morning, I dreamt about my ex in the shower with some sexy Brazilian chic, I went in there pulled back the shower curtain and told him to have a great time....*lol*
I went searching for someone to sex, but to no avail, I woke myself up again.
So something has got to give, I'm tired of these nightmares.....
Firework My Words
Sunday, May 21, 2006
The Laundromat....
If you missed "Who's Right? Who's Wrong? You may want to read that before proceeding. This is the dialouge for the following story....
I carried two 40 pound bags of dirty clothes into the “laundroteria” (**lol**) while Kaeven grabbed the detergent, fabric softener and bleach. I dumped my bags into a basket and proceeded to the top load $1.50 washing machines for my whites (mostly Kaeven’s whites). I arrive at the washers and notice that all of the washers are taken or out of order except one.
The one that this goofy-looking, acne-faced, Latina chic is standing in front of, the one that she sat there opening and closing the lid, as though she never seen a washing machine. So I stood there with my clothes, with my attitude, [when I’m on my business (cooking, cleaning, laundry) I have this stank ass demeanor], with a look on my face, like, “Bitch, hurry up and finish examining the damn washer like you a Crime Scene Investigaor and let me handle my business. Move Bitch…” She then spoke. I spoke. She spoke. I didn’t budge. I wanted to tell the chic, “Bitch you on bullshit”, instead of asking the bitch where her clothes were…
However, I remembered.
I am not alone.
I am a mother and my son is here…
That’s when my passive aggressive, sarcastic tactics came into play.
I wasn’t finna sit there and let this bitch go all the way over there and get her clothes and come back when I’m standing here.
Ready, prepared, and on a mission, literally.
I had to hit the Southside before traffic hit.
"I needed to talk to Samson…”*lol*
I wasn’t leaving without a fight, while trying my best to avoid a fight.
So I just stopped talking and looked the bitch like she was silly…waiting for her to tear her muthafuckin ass.
I have this blink I do to people that really pisses people off, while they get all emotionally charged. I sit calmly, blinking, with this look on my face that says, “OK, shut yo dumb ass up… I’m not trying to hear that bullshit…”
If she was clever about it, she would’ve inserted her card into the machine, start the cycle, and go get her clothes. Straight off GP, I would have had to respect her property because now the machine was in use.
I really wanted to push the bitch out the way and get my laundry on…
She then went on about her business catching my eye to flash her ice grill. I laughed in her face. Then once I placed my whites into the dryer, I went up to her with this sarcastic smile and said, “My clothes are done, you can use the washer now…”
“That’s nice”, she said.
I started laughing once again…she could see my body shaking from me laughing.
After slightly taunting her, then I kept a eye on the bitch.
I was in the Puerto Rican part of town, I was the minority, you know them marks stick together.
Blade?
CHECK.
This bitch finished her laundry, went to the car and changed clothes. She then came back into the Laundromat.
At first, she wore
some thick heeled sandals,
with some cute little linen Capri pants,( I even gave the bitch a compliment, in my head though)
with a nice linen blouse(another compliment).
She changed into
some boguish shorts
and an old T-shirt,
but with the same sandals...
I had on
my blue zip up hoodie,
my White Sox shirt made from jersey material,
some dark blue jeans,
and my boguish White/Gray Nike Air Max(Gray cause the leather wore off… and so did the Nike Air Max sign…Now they just say my name Nika(Yazmar are you satisfied?)…*lol* I’m so silly, compliments of Mike Epps…),
with my hair in cornrows.
Yea, I looked so hood and grimy..but my ass was washed and my clothes were Downy fresh…*lol* (I love fresh linens). I always dress like the common folk, when I’m on business, ripping and running, but when I’m making a grand appearance that’s a different story…
I was like, “She is really mad”….*lol*
She then went back to her car, as she spat on her cellphone…and drove away…
Friday, May 19, 2006
WHO'S RIGHT? WHO'S WRONG?
Two women are in a laundromat. There are 6 top load washers, 3 of them are in use, two are out of order. The two women approach the only available washer at the same time. The first lady has her clothes in her basket at the washer, the second lady is just standing at the washer. They both eye each other...
Lady #2: Those two are out of order.
Lady #1: OK......
Lady #2 : Well I was going to actually use this one...
Lady #1 : Well, where are your clothes?
Lady #2 : They're over there, I'm going to go get them, I just came over here to check it.
Lady #1: Well, I'm here ready to load....do you expect me to sit here and look at this washer, when I'm already here ready to load?
Lady #2 : My clothes are just over there. I was going to use this one...
Lady #1: (Standing there looking at Lady #2,like she stupid, waiting for her to leave to get her clothes.)
Lady #2 : You know what, I'm not even going to sit here and argue with you...you can have it...
Lady #1 : GOOD...(smugly)
Lady #2 : (walks off)
WHICH LADY WAS RIGHT? WHO SHOULD HAVE USED THE WASHER?
LADY #1 OR LADY #2?
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Question and Answers
Why have I been downloading porn from LimeWire all day?
Cause I'm horny and sexually deprived....
Why did I download Karrine Steffans and Mr. Marcus's movie?
Cause I wanted to see her technique which is nothing more than my techinique...*lol*
Why does Eve and Nelly have a 45 second feature on there?
Cause they freaks...I knew it!
Why does R. Kelly like eating asses out?
Cause he likes his breath to smell shitty....I hope those girls do like me and shower after a bowel movement....
Why did I see my child's father this weekend?
Because, that was one of the many wishes of my son for his birthday...
Why is that nigga as big as the Incredible Hulk and his biceps are big as my head?
Cause he benching 315lbs...
Why did he kiss me in my mouth?
Cause he horny as fuck...
Why did he ask me to go to the bathroom, wipe the aroma from my vagina and give him the paper towel?
So he can use it to get his money later on, while he smells it....
Why did I do it too?
Cause it was the least I could do...
Why did I insert my finger into my vagina and put in it in his mouth?
So he could have a taste..*lol*.and cause I'm nasty...*lol*
Why did the mailroom not allow me to send him a copy of my "Beauty is a Beast" blog?
Because they said it was sexually explicit material...
Well why the hell does he have a copy of one of Zane's novels?
Cause the system is ass backwards....
Why am I scared to have sex with him?
Cause he's been locked up since last May...
Why haven't I talked to PCC in weeks and his phone was disconnected?
Cause he was in the County, like I figured...
Why did he call me as soon as he bonded out?
Cause he wanted some...
Why couldn't I give him none, when I wanted to so badly?
Cause the Crimson Tide is here....too bad.
Why was he the last person I slept with?
Because I wanted it that way.....
Why the hell was he locked up?
For illegal use of a firearm....his crazy ass...
Why did my Filipino ex-lover call me today?
Because he said he was thinking about me and he had missed me.
What was he thinking about in particular?
My big ass and titties and how we used to dip off at work and get our groove on....
Why is he so fascinated with my ass and tits?
Cause I'm his first black girl and I guess Filipina women ain't stacked like they black... (and vice versa)
Why was I thinking about his little penis?
Cause I get turned on my the weirdest things and his was so cute and little...*lol*
Why am I talking like this?
Cause I saw a funny episode of Seinfeld last night and if you saw it too, you would catch the references....
Why did that episode have me rolling last night?
Cause it was hella funny...*lol*
"Do you think they think I was just being folksy?" - George
Cause I'm horny and sexually deprived....
Why did I download Karrine Steffans and Mr. Marcus's movie?
Cause I wanted to see her technique which is nothing more than my techinique...*lol*
Why does Eve and Nelly have a 45 second feature on there?
Cause they freaks...I knew it!
Why does R. Kelly like eating asses out?
Cause he likes his breath to smell shitty....I hope those girls do like me and shower after a bowel movement....
Why did I see my child's father this weekend?
Because, that was one of the many wishes of my son for his birthday...
Why is that nigga as big as the Incredible Hulk and his biceps are big as my head?
Cause he benching 315lbs...
Why did he kiss me in my mouth?
Cause he horny as fuck...
Why did he ask me to go to the bathroom, wipe the aroma from my vagina and give him the paper towel?
So he can use it to get his money later on, while he smells it....
Why did I do it too?
Cause it was the least I could do...
Why did I insert my finger into my vagina and put in it in his mouth?
So he could have a taste..*lol*.and cause I'm nasty...*lol*
Why did the mailroom not allow me to send him a copy of my "Beauty is a Beast" blog?
Because they said it was sexually explicit material...
Well why the hell does he have a copy of one of Zane's novels?
Cause the system is ass backwards....
Why am I scared to have sex with him?
Cause he's been locked up since last May...
Why haven't I talked to PCC in weeks and his phone was disconnected?
Cause he was in the County, like I figured...
Why did he call me as soon as he bonded out?
Cause he wanted some...
Why couldn't I give him none, when I wanted to so badly?
Cause the Crimson Tide is here....too bad.
Why was he the last person I slept with?
Because I wanted it that way.....
Why the hell was he locked up?
For illegal use of a firearm....his crazy ass...
Why did my Filipino ex-lover call me today?
Because he said he was thinking about me and he had missed me.
What was he thinking about in particular?
My big ass and titties and how we used to dip off at work and get our groove on....
Why is he so fascinated with my ass and tits?
Cause I'm his first black girl and I guess Filipina women ain't stacked like they black... (and vice versa)
Why was I thinking about his little penis?
Cause I get turned on my the weirdest things and his was so cute and little...*lol*
Why am I talking like this?
Cause I saw a funny episode of Seinfeld last night and if you saw it too, you would catch the references....
Why did that episode have me rolling last night?
Cause it was hella funny...*lol*
"Do you think they think I was just being folksy?" - George
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
Happy Birthday Kaeven!(May 16th)
He wanted a SpiderMan cake...and he got it...
I guess he's making a wish..his silly self...*lol*
"I'm foe"...*lol*
Cut the cake....
Later we went to Toys R Us...
Mom came over and brought him a few SpiderMan outfits...
(I'm so glad I don't have my mother's nose...*lol*)
The birthday week isn't over, tomorrow we will go out with his uncle and his cousins. We'll probably go to Chucky Cheese or somewhere they can play....
This was not my original post but I can't upload my pictures....hopefully I will be able to later....
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