LONG LOST LOVE

As I sat in my job training class today, a fellow employee mentioned, how she was reconnected with her long lost love. She found him on a chat room. In a way, I was jealous, hell, I want to see my long lost love. Its been on my mind for a while now.




I've been making up scenarios in my mind, if I should ever cross his path:





At the Grambling vs Prarie State game (which I'm not going to cause I can't stunt how I want).





At one of the clubs and how I would end up ditching my date or 2Pac if I did run into him (once I'm able to stunt how I want).







Or just in route to or from work, in traffic or on the bus.







They all seemed farfetched, but I like daydreaming, so at least its real in my mind.






Anywho.....







The girl mentioned how they met up and tried to rekindle their passion.





My response: "I wish I could find my long lost love."








So as the hours passed, which seemed like eternity, I was speaking with some other classsmates. One guy stated how he wish he had someone to ride the bus and train with, so that he could catch a few winks. He wasn't worried about getting poked(robbed), but more worried about missing his stop.




They then began to ask me, "Is that how is it in Chicago?"


I looked at them like, "I would think that's how it is anywhere....Chicago or not?"


I retorted, "Hell yea, you betta not fall asleep on no damn bus....or sleep with one eye open..."


I quickly ended that conversation cause it was 5:00pm and time to punch out. (Had I waited one second later, I would not have experienced what I experienced today)


I have 16 minutes to walk to Kaeven's school and get to the bus stop in order to catch my bus.





I made it to Kaeven's school in 4 minutes flat.





BEHOLD....




I see a familiar face....



I take a second look and call his name....




He doesn't recognize me......





I say, "Its Thelma. You don't remember you used to call me Thelma all the time?", from Good Times....





He say, "Hey whats up girl?!" ( A lightbulb goes off in his high head)





"All them your kids?" (3 kids)




"Yea..."












"Where is yo brother, Derry?!?!?!?!"






"He stay right up the street"(I knew he wasn't too far)








"Tell that nigga to call me, I been looking all over for him. Give him my number!"








"I sure will. I'mma call him right now when I leave."








"Did yo family make it out of the N.O.?"







"Yea, they did. We were there just last week. It was so sad to see our home like that."











"Well, I'm glad they aiight. I'm mad you didn't know who I was!"
















"Thats cause you have your hair different."
(That nigga looked high as giraffe pussy. He was straight in a zone.)







"I'll holla at you, Joe!"
















"Aiight Joe!"








My face hasn't been so bright since I been here. It always makes you feel better to be, "Where everybody knows yo name...."


I still have 7 minutes to spare til the bus arrived.




So I got home and told my father, to guess who I saw today, and he guessed his first try.


My dad says, "Why you ain't get Derry's number?"













"Cause, I don't just go around asking for people's numbers....besides, what if he done got married on me or something, ya know? I don't know his situation..."









So now, I wait for the call....




And wait.....



And wait......






And the phone rings......




"Hello..."






"HEEEEYYYY BAAAABBBY" ( in that New Orleans accent), " I been looking for you for over 3 years..."


"No, I been looking for you..."




"I knew I was gonna find you either here or in Chicago. You see how fate works?"




Then he goes on to tell his homie, "This is my better half, I found my favorite girl!!!!"




I'm so glad he ain't married, he has no women in the picture(so he says).....and we shall see each other again, tomorrow!!!!



OMG!!!, I'm so flustered......elated, overjoyed......I can't believe the power of speaking things into existence.....




Yall know how long I been talking about finding this man.....

How long I been missing him.....



He been missing me too......

WE GOING TO THE SUPERBOWL BABY!!!

The Chicago Bears are now 3-0...

"GO TEAM GO, RRRRROAARRRR!!!" - I bet yall don't know what movie thats from....

This was a very close game, due to the fact that Minnesota's officials were cheating.

Calling flags on almost every play....

Cause they know...

I know they know see it!

We got the best defense of the league....

But cheaters proof....we won...19-16....

How you gone call a play on "Unnecessary Roughness"?

False start?

"Illegal Snap"? WTF???? I never even heard of that, but we got called on 2 of them....

BULLSHIT!!!

This game was a game of "flag"ball...not football...

But the BEARS proved who was elite, regardless of the cheating officials....

I even won $20 bucks on a wager....

The Bears going all the way baby!!!

Summer Anthem...(this is one of my favorite RingTones..)

Your 2006 Summer Anthem Is

Promiscuous by Nelly Furtado "I'm only trying to get inside your brain To see if you can work me the way you say It's okay, it's alright I got something that you might like"

What's Your 2006 Summer Anthem?

MOVIE MEME

Thanks T.Cas for providing me with fodder for my blog. I've been busy at work and being a new hire, I refuse to access the internet, although its tempting.......

And I can't wait for the next episode of the Real World.....

But since I'm a girl that LOVES movies, I love this meme....so I made time for it....


MOVIE MEME:

1. First movie you remember seeing on the big screen

I know that my mother took me to see some movie, however, the first movie I remember is.....

HellRaiser....it was my 11th birthday and my mother took me and my friends to see it, and then a nice dinner. I remember having to cover my eyes for the nasty scenes while my friends peeked through their coats, they fast ass....they was already fucking....

2. Movie from which you can quote multiple lines in your sleep?

Friday, Juice, Menace to Society, What About Bob?, Groundhog Day, the list goes on and on....

3. Director (dead or alive) with whom you’d like to have dinner?

Spike Lee....

4. Movie that should have won an Oscar but didn’t.

I'm with T. Cas on this one, X....

5. Movie that didn’t disappoint despite being an adaptation of a book.

I hated the movie for "A Brave New World", but the book was great.


6. Movie you were dragged to by someone else expecting to hate but loved.

Puddy dragged me to see Inside Man, when I really wanted to see "ATL", but I enjoyed Inside Man, more than I enjoyed, ATL.....

7. Movie that still scares the crap out of you no matter how many times you watch it.

Judgement Night....although I know what happens in the end I still fear for their lives....
My favorite line: "No, no, you can't just TAKE my money, but you can take my money...."- Dennis Leary

8. Movie that still makes you bawl no matter how many times you see it.

The Color Purple and The Professional....at the end when Leon knows he's gonna have to take on the entire police force and "Matilda" refuses to leave him, but he gives her his plant, the plant he showed so much love........and she kept it and grew it, so it would have roots......*crying* SIKE, but if I saw it I would be....

9. Movie that still has you rolling around on the floor with laughter no matter how many times you’ve seen it.

Half Baked.....Saving Silverman....Joe Dirt.....

10 Favorite movie from before you were born:

Education of Sonny Carson, JD's Revenge, Fritz the Cat.....

11. Random movie fact about you:

I like to rewind the movie if or when I miss something, or if something is so funny, I might rewind it 50 times...or if I want to memorize an important line.....

12. Have you been in any movies?

The one I made....*lol*

But on the real, I coulda been an extra in that rollerskate movie with Bow WOW and Nick Cannon, they filmed it in my hood....but I wasn't on that......I did walk past the set and saw how they actually did things....

Can anyone tell me the name of that movie? I think it was Roll Bounce?.....

GOOD TIMES

"I LIKE GOOD TIMES!!"...*lol*


I remember when I lived in a Chicago Housing project. I was actually born and breed in the "jects". I can definitely relate to Good Times. Its not an actual portrayal, though its mad funny. I've never lived in the high rise projects, such as the family in Good Times but I did live in the row townhouse and apartment-style projects.



When I was a baby, the millions of roaches and super-sized rats roamed our house. Our room (my parents and baby Nsanelee's) was the cleanest room in the house, habitated by my mother's large family, minus a father. The roaches and rats used to try to make their way into my crib, seduced by the smell of baby formula and evaporated milk. Luckily it was a bit more controlled, because my father exterminated and we owned a cat.

From the time I could remember the jects, I was about 5. I remember roaches, a few mice, and a couple of gansta ass rats, that would harass us outside of our home. (Joe, I almost got robbed by a rat...*lol*) Although I remember "GOOD TIMES" I tend to dwell on and remember the bad times. The times when, my life, my livelihood, my family, were jeopardized. City Housing Project living is sub-human, cruel and inhumane. Its sickening to see people allowing this type of living.

BAD TIMES

The roaches were terrifying in itself. They came swoll. They swarmed us and after my dad exterminating, they laid dead in every place imaginable. To this day, I can't live or kick it at houses with roaches the sight of them makes me wanna "earl".

The rats were so gangsta, they would try to bogard they way into our crib, they weren't no back down ass rats. Bleach got they ass running though...

The deck going up at any time. There was no set time to the violence and madness. The shootouts, the gang fights, the beatdowns, by neighborhood ruffians and "Chicago's Finest"(the Chicago Police). Its not a good feeling having to look over your shoulder just trying to live peacefully in your home. Luckily, I was sheltered for the most part, but I was also a latchkey kid, being that both my parents worked full time jobs.

The confined living quarters. Its scientifically-experimented and proven that too many rats in one place, struggling for survival are only going to battle and have stress. Luckily for my family, we only had 4 people in our shoebox apartment, but there were some, most families consisting of 8 or more people. Sheesh, and this is prior to the new law which requires male and female siblings to have separate rooms. (Intentional physiological destruction of a people.)

Neighborhood school. I hated the fact that we had to get bussed to a quality school. I missed the bus a few times and on one occasion, I had to go to the neighborhood school. It was so disorderly. The pupils were unfazed by the instructors and the grade level work was at least 2 grade levels behind. I vowed never to miss the bus after that, although I loved the fact that I had plenty of time to sleep, once I completed the lesson plan. (I was sleepy, thats why I missed the bus in the first place...

New Years Eve. These jokers would start shooting as soon as, or as, the sun set. Its like 7 o'clock. And these niggas ain't have no 22's or 32's. They had heavy artillery, government issued semi, automatic, assault weapons and bombs. It sounded like I was in Iraq. They would be at it all night and day, they didn't stop shooting til 8am the next morning, January 1st. I

THE GOOD TIMES

The entertainment. Late nights I would wake up to the melodious sounds of drunken winos, singing love songs, the classic, old school shit. I would peep out at them through my window, returning to bed, falling asleep of their harmonious renditions of my old school favorites. They sung those songs with so much feeling, they was hurting. They were tight with theirs, but fell victim to the deliberate destruction of a people. The little neighborhood fast tail girls, whose mothers were either in the streets or strung out, popping they asses, making up dance routines. I thank them little skanks (that was bogus to say, but that's just how I talk...*lol*) because before I saw them, I had no concept of rhythm and dance. Call me ofay...*lol*

The times my parents watched me fight through the window. There were several fights my parents observed and a few they didn't see. But it was such a great feeling to know after I fought and went in the house, my parents were there proud, giving me a blow by blow account of the fight, telling me they were proud that I stood my ground and ain't punk out. Most of my fights were with little freak nasty little boys trying to get they feels on.

The fact they we were "HOOD RICH", an oxymoron. We had 2 new current year cars, all the clothes(minus the new Jordan's cause they was killing fools over those), food, and toys. We lived better in comparison to others. We had less roaches, new furniture, and clean living quarters. We had exactly what we needed and some of what we wanted.

Moving out. It was a happy day for me on my 11th birthday to move. I was glad to be "moving on up", I didn't move too far up, at least there were no roaches or rats. We moved 2 blocks from some high-rise projects. So it was still grimy, but we lived better.

GOOD TIMES MY ASS

Imagine if while you were watching GOOD TIMES, Thelma is preparing a meal and she steadily keeps stomping on roaches, trying to keep them from contaminating the food....

Then a roach crawls up her pantleg.....*lol*

Or Florida is talking to James and a rat runs across the screen and now their attention is diverted to killing that fat rat.....

Or Micheal coming in, out of breathe, terrified because they was busting(shooting) outside, as he was coming home from school.....

Or JJ getting a pumpkin head""pumpkin head" while he was coming home....

Or Thelma getting sexually-harassed by the "thugs" on her way home...

Or just all the Bad Time stories I told, times 50, cause in a high rise the violence is mutliplied because of the people stacked on top of one another, living like slaves on a boat to America.

Is it accurate to call this show GOOD TIMES?

I don't regret living in the "jects", it helped shape the person I am today, however, I don't think that any human should have to live like this.

THE RETURN OF PUDDY

"It is a good rule in life never to apologize. The right sort of people do not want apologies, and the wrong sort take a mean advantage of them."- P.G. Wodehouse ( I thought I would add a quote in rememberance of Blue Butterfli, RIP..*lol*)

The last time I spoke with Puddy was a late, drunken night after the club and he acted ever so shady. Why did he even bother to answer the phone?

Anyway, I spoke to his co-worker last week and finally admitted to Puddy and I's relationship. He was none the wiser. I found that hard to believe, but I felt bad that I accused Puddy of such actions. Anyway, Mojo, the co-worker, said that by his actions, he really cared about me, but feared saying the L word, because women expect so much more when you say that L word. I agree...

Mojo, also broke down just fucking someone versus giving them your all. A nigga that don't have no feelings for you will fuck you, bust his nut and be out. But it seems as if Puddy put his all into it, his yesterday and his tommorrow in it. Which he did.....LAWD!

Mojo explained the reason for Puddy's shady actions being that he didn't want to get hurt, knowing I was leaving town soon.....
Mojo even told me that Puddy and his girlfriend broke up, FINALLY!!!
But Puddy would never tell me this....

I feel so bad accusing him of such actions, when he held his tongue....

I been thinking about him for a while now....
So I texted him this morning...

If yall forgot what had happened back in July check out Kickin Up Dust Part 1 and 2 (http://nsaneleesane.blogspot.com/2006/07/conversation-between-nsaneleesane-and.html) and
(http://nsaneleesane.blogspot.com/2006/07/kickin-up-dust-part-2-so-nsanelee.html)
Me: Do you hate me? I miss you...

Puddy: WOW, its so strange that I periodically keep hearing from someone who told me that I would never hear from them again...

Me: You're such a Jerk Off, I didn't ask you that.

Puddy: I'm saying though, is this the same person who said that?

Me: No, InsanelySane said that...(*lol*)

Me: Can you just answer my question?

Puddy: Right, you must be off that lean or something...

Me: Shut up, no lean sippin...Can you stop the assholism?(a word we made up) Will you be the bigger person?

Puddy: No I can't. The last time I asked you a question, you acted an ass with me.

Puddy: I will not be the bigger person. I tried to be that bigger person back in July.

Me: For what its worth, I apologize on Insanely's behalf. (*lol*) I hope you don't hate me for what she did and I DO MISS YOU....

I hate eating crow, but sometimes you have to swallow your pride....and I hate doing that too....

But everything happens for a reason, in this case a good reason. I would've postponed leaving Chicago, even when I knew it was best for me.

I created the distance for the reason of sparing my feelings. I fully exposed myself and didn't get that in return.

Before the fight, he actually supported my move to Dallas and said he will be here to visit. I wonder does that offer still stand....

THINKING BACK....(Not another Random Post)

* Today 5 years ago...
* I saw Derry as I was driving to my A+ Certification Class....
*I was driving my Chevy Caprice 2 door...
* He just looked at me...
* A few days prior, I had to break it off with him, I couldn't cheat with him, without feeling guilty.
* That day, I learned I was pregnant.
*I couldn't stay awake in class...

*I spoke to Kevin(my child's father) and he told me what happened...
* I wasn't thinking clearly, I didn't believe it, I thought it was a joke...
* Or the media had they shit mixed up, they always screw shit up, I thought...

*Many people told me to abort because the economy will be fucked and you don't want to bring a baby into this...
*Sorry, I want my baby....

*At first, it didn't bother me, cause I wasn't initially affected by it...
* I didn't lose any money in stocks, hell....
*White people lost it though...

*I find it strange, even enraging that we still look at 911, but what about Katrina...
*Same demo...
*Natural disaster???
*How, when these muthafuckas blew up the levees?
*After the storm passed, there was a loud BOOM!!
*Then it flooded...
*The levees held until they blew that bitch up...
*I'm mad I didn't get to utilize my HBO to see Spike Lee's Joint "When the Levees Broke"
*Which should be titled "When the Levees GOT BLOWN THE FUCK UP!"
*Amazingly, the people with money got out before they were blown up...
*Its not amazing its just a say it with me, C-O-N-spiracy...

*I miss home....
*But being at home ain't gone get me no where (thats so broken english)
*I would be kickin it with the guys getting drunk, tryna hit up a club...
*Or planning a late booty call...
*Or at home watching ON DEMAND...

*Why these niggas always talkin bout "pokin"(robbing) somebody?
*Niggas with mad trick off money...but in the end that shit all comes back to you, 10-fold.

*I can't stop looking at one of my homeboys homeboy's pic on the internet.
*Why was he tryna solicit a prostitute which turned out to be a cop?
*Thats why they call him HOTDICK, HD, or Hi-Def...
*He was so BUSTED that night, I thought he wouldn't make it home...
*Well he might not have made it home, maybe its good he was arrested...
*But why, when you got a girl at the crib?


*All the niggas out West got one of these hats...
*They called 150hat or Wingdings...
*Cause they cost $150 or more, they are customized...
*A nigga will knock yo head off for that hat.??..?...?
*Its a ghetto status symbol...
*I wonder do they wear these down south?????

*Why these marks still ain't sent me my bread?
*Why can't the Unemployment office get shit straight?
*How hard is it to forward mail?
*Now I done won the ebay auction on some limited edition Air Max 90 with Pink, Purple and Gray...and can't pay for them yet, now I will get a negative ebayer rating...SHIT!!
*But I had to have those J's....
*Just so I can say, "Check out my feet/You ain't got these"
*While I'm leaning and rocking with it...

*Now my cell phone gone get cut off, Sprint don't be playing
*And I can't get my hair did...
*And I'm not going out Saturday, cause I don't like not having no bread...
*If I'm lucky this week's check will come before the check that was supposed to be issued 2 weeks ago...
*Let's hope I get lucky, cause I'm tired of looking at my head like this..
*I'm bout ready to put a perm in it...SIKE....
*I'll rough it out a little while longer, but as long as its braided I don't have to worry bout it..

*I'mma twist it up tonight....I hate twisting this shit, its gone take forever...
*I gotta go joggin in the morning...I feel myself eating a little too much, cause I'm bored as hell...
*Even though my pops says I'm in good shape for someone hittin on 30...

*I'm horny...
*Working out will only make me hornier...

*I'm sad for GeorgiaPeach, I wish there was something I could do to help.
*She is taking donations for her mom's funeral.
*We as people don't take advantage of insurance...
*But hell, if you struggling to pay your bills, why would you add another bill?
* I want insurance, but if the job don't pay for it, then its just another one of those things that go undone.


*Speaking of insurance, State Farm, Allstate and all other insurance companies didn't pay out to the Katrina victims claiming it was a natural disaster...
*Well blowing up the levees ain't a natural disaster, sorry...

*Ok, I gotta wipe my ass, TMI, and I use baby wipes, then I gotta take a shower....
*Yea, a true germaphobe, and the bathroom stays Pine Fresh and disinfected with bleach...

A MOMENT OF SILENCE

GeorgiaPeach's mom passed this weekend.
I hate death, cause it comes without warning.
I don't know what to say, I can never say I understand someone's pain, cause I haven't lost anyone close and dear to me.

I can only imagine, if I lost my son, I would want to die as well.
What would be my purpose of living?

I know when my sister got hit by a car, I went into shambles....

When my child's father first went down, I went into shambles...

But they are still with us, so I can imagine how I would be a complete zombie if I were to lose them.

I don't know how you're feeling Georgia, but I can only imagine.

I know my mother isn't my favorite person, but I wouldn't know what to do without her....

I know you and your mom have been through a trying time, lately...
I can only say....
I pray for you and your family's sanity and peace during this trying time.

GOD doesn't do anything you can't handle and he doesn't do things for no reason.
Even though, she's not here with you in the physical, she's still with you in spirit.

She's now your ANGEL, looking down on you, to protect you.

I LOVE YOU GEORGIA!!!!(Let me know if you need anything)

*tears*

RIP CeCe...
You're in a better place now....

I LOVE THIS SONG!!!
This was my favorite song from Sesame Street...



I sing this to Kaeven at night...he loves it!
Thanks to YOUTUBE, I was able to let him see and hear the real song.. cause I can't sang...

Redundant Randomness(Not another Random Post)

* I'm horny....aren't I always? I think I'm a nymphomaniac.....
*Honesty, I do....
*I don't beat my meat as often as I used to, privacy is a major issue.
*I do have a waterproof vibrator, so go figure why the water bill is sky high....

*"Oh I think he like me, better yet I know!"
*He calls or texts me errrday...
*He looks like 2Pac, especially when I'm drunk.
* Another nigga with previous ties....*sigh*
*Well, she was gone for a week, so it was a free for all, or as my guys out West would call, a LollaPalooza....*lol*(They so silly)
*She's back now, so now its time to start the "BIG FREEZE"...
* He ain't never had it so good...
*Word on the street is, he is having second thoughts about his girlfriend and kicking himself in the ass for moving her in, rather, letting her move herself in....
*I'm glad Pops is in the middle of this, cause I get both sides of the story, plus some good game advice.
*We going out, next weekend....(that's a long time, but in the meanwhile, I'll be using my Ben Wa Balls...*lol*)

*I got 2 interviews this week from one day of diligent job searching....YAAHHH
*Good, now I don't have to work with Pops, him, and his live in girlfriend....
*She works in HR, so she would have full access to my info...not GOOD!

* I guess Pops know what he was doing after all....
*But why his girl be sneaking hugs to my Pops at work, and she be calling my Pops...
*Why is there a hermaphodite working at they job? And word on the street is she kissed him/her....
*If he only knew....
*She be sending her guy money cause he in jail and she gone bail on him as soon as he get out...
*But I'll never hate on another so, I just hope he does the right thing....

*They need to hurry up and send me my lil dust...playing with my money is like playing with my emotions....

*Kaeven eat like the end of the world is coming....he done ate all the food...He will eat you outta house and home...
*I can't wait til my Pops give him a whupping, I can't wait!...*lol*

*Oh shit, I gotta get some of that STAT FLUSH, shit....I may have to submit urine...MAY is the key word...better safe than sorry...

*Why is daycare cheaper out here? Hell everything is cheaper out here....except braids....

*Why did I watch Flavor of Love for the first time last night? Now I'm hooked!
*New York is in the HOUSE!!!!
*Thats gone be GOOD!!!
*I'm so mad Foofy got rid of Its Like That...she was cool as hell....
*Am I trippin or do the broads look better this season?
*Ok, maybe not they face...except Beautiful...
*But guys don't care too much about the face anyway, they'll put a bag on they head....
*Why all the girls frontin on the white girls?
*Is Buckwild a product of incest?
* I was watching Discovery Channel and they did a survey, believe it or not, women have just as many sexual partners as men, but for the sake of not looking like whores, they don't count them all....

*Why did they arrest Mos Def for performing "Katrina Clap"? Muthafuckas what happened to freedom of speech?



*I need to get into school for the next semester....the Nursing field is always in high demand and I hate corporate AmeriKKKa....

*Why is she emailing me? She blew me when she said that "golddiggin bullshit", convo over....

*OOOOOH...why did T just send me this? LOOK AT BUFFIE THE BOOTY GO!!!



*I miss home, just a lil bit....he makes me not miss it so much...

*I LOVE Murphy Laws on Sex....(Ok, maybe I am really a nymph, but yall should read it if yall haven't already)
*I have many favorites but this one is the one that sticks out the most "Sex takes up the least amount of time and causes the most amount of trouble."

*Yall wish me well tommorrow...
THANKS

MY DAD

(Note: Thats not his girlfriend. My dad just likes to flirt with all the women he comes into contact with. The guy in the back, thats his girlfriend. Thats why he looking like that.)

What you think about my dad, do I look him?
Am I a splitting image?

THE LONGEST LONGEST Meme, longer than the other

1) Full Name: Yall ready???
Tamenika
Laqui
Lynn
2) Name Backwards: Akinemat, looks like an African word...probably is...
3) Were you named after anyone? My mother made it up when she was in high school, the middle name Lynn is the same name as all the women on my father's side of the family...
4) Does your name mean anything? It means my mother is Ghetto...*lol*
5) Nick Name(s): Nika, Nique, Faye, T, Tammy, but if you call me that you will not get a response or I will punch you....
6) Screen Name(s):sweet1coochbrown....my baby daddy gave me that name.
7) Date Of Birth: 2/11/80
8) Place of Birth: Chicago, IL
9) Nationality: African American, wait, thats not a nationality...*lol*
10) Current Location: Dallas, Hot ass Texas
11) Sign: Aquarius
12) Religion: Agnostic
13) Height: 5'4
14) Skin Color: Caramel
15) Shoe Size: 6 in boys, 7 1/2 women
16) Hair colour: Cinnamon Brown
17) Eye colour: Dark Brown
18) What do you look like? Like a freak...*lol*
19) Innie or Outie? Innie, with stretch marks, that Kaeven like to rub as if its some spectacle...*lol*
20) Right, Lefty, or Ambidextrous? I can do both, but I'm right handed
21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other?Other, I'm tri-sexual, I'll try anything...*lol*
22) Best friend(s): Ummmmmmm....
23) Best friend you trust the most: I trust my first the most.....T
24) Best friends {your sex}: Yall know I don't fuck with females too tough, they shiesty...
.25) Best friends of the opposite sex: Main and T. Both Virgos...
26) Best Bud(s): Budd...*lol* Nah, he cool peoples, he tells it how it is and I love that.
27) Boyfriend / Girlfriend: Who needs a boyfriend when you can have your cake and eat it too?
28) Crush: I guess I'm like a man in this aspect, cause once the deed is done, I no longer crush you...
29) Parent(s):My mammie in Chicago, and My pops is here in Dallas, imposing upon my freedom.
30) Worst Enemy: Anyone imposing upon my freedom.
31) Favourite on-line Guy(s): I don't have one, I like men in real life....
32) Favourite on-line Girl(s): Missy, cause she gone get it one of these days...*lol*
33) Funniest friend: Drew, Budds brother makes me laugh til my guts hurt, every rep...
34) Craziest friend: Ain't nobody crazier than me, NsaneLeeSane...*lol*
35) Advice Friend: I'll talk to Budd, plus he has legal knowledge so I might can turn shit into CHA CHING...$$$
36) Loudest Friend:Vel be loud as hell, I met him thru Main, and they all treat me like Family...
37) Person you cry with: I cry alone...

Do You Have...
38) Any sisters: 1, she's 4 years younger
39) Any brothers: I wish I did have a big brother...but Main can be my fake big brother although he doesn't want to be. But it only seems right because his real sister looks just like me, well thats what everybody keep saying...
40) Any pets: I hate pets.
41) A Disease: I have some personality disorders, self diagnosed, we all have something...I think I have OCD too...I'm a germaphobe..
42) A Pager: lol
43) A Personal phone line: "I got 2 cell phones who wanna call me dog?"-Jeezy
44) A Cell phone: "I got 2 cell phones who wanna call me dog?"-Jeezy
45) A Lava lamp: I had one, I left it here in Dallas, lemme ask my daddy where it is....he prolly broke it in a drunken stupor.
46) A Pool or hot tub:There's a pool in the apartment complex, waiting on me and Kaeven's bathing suit to get shipped so I can go sunbathing...
47) A Car: I sold my car before I got here, the White Angel, I wanted to cry...
Describe Your...
48) Personality: honest, unbiased, stubborn, quick-tempered.
.49) Driving: I drive like the police in Chicago, but here, I must drive like Ms. Daisy, cause they will lock you up for anything down here.
50) Car or one you want: I want a heavy Chevy, 84Caprice or 93Impala
51) Room: Right now its clean, but later on, thats a differnet story, once Kaeven destroys it...
52) What’s missing? My own damn space...
53) School: Whitney Young Magnet High, I'll be able to go back to college, now that I have some support for my son...
54) Bed: Air Mattress...comfy
55) Relationship with your parent(s): BLAH!!! Don't get me started....

Do you...
56) Believe in yourself:I guess...*lol* That doesn't sound to sure does it?
57) Do you believe in love at first sight? I do, thats what happened with me and my child's father, I doubt it will happen again..
58) Consider yourself a good listener: Yea, if I want to hear it, if not, I will not listen
59) Sleep in PJs: sweat shorts, white t...or whatever I fall asleep with on..
60) Get Along with your parents: JESUS CHRIST, stop asking me that...
61) Save your e-mail conversations: Some, I saved Puddy's and some of my ex's...
62) Pray: One day last week...I blogged about it.
63) Believe in reincarnation: Yes..."When I die I'll be back reincarnated as a muthafuckin mack-11 cause in heaven there's no shortage on G's"-Tupac
64) Like to make fun of people: Its the best, thats what I miss the most about the Chi...
65) Like to talk on the phone: If my minutes are free...and if its not a one-sided convo
66) Like to eat: LOVE IT!!!
67) Like to drive: Not when I have to everyday, but when I'm BUSTED, yes...or when I just want some fresh air, yes. But not during traffic...
68) Get motion sickness: If I'm BUSTED
69) Eat the stems of broccoli: Broccoli is the BEST!!
70) Eat Chicken fingers with a fork: Chicken fingers are finger foods why would I unless I was in a restrurant then I would cut them and eat them with a fork so I don't appear like I have no home training...
71) Dream in colour: Yes, even though they say you dream in black in white....
72) Type with your fingers on home row: Yes
73) Sleep with a stuffed animal:The closest thing to a stuffed animal is Kaeven or my pillow.

What Is…
74) Right next to you: My shot glass of Hennessy
75) On the walls of your room: Some paintings that match the room.
76) On your mouse pad: My fingers, its a laptop.
77) Your dream car: Chevy, dang this is getting redundant.
78) Your dream date: I don't dream about dates...
79) Your dream honeymoon spot: Vegas, I plan to get eloped...
80) Your dream husband/wife: My child's father if he could live up to his true potential, the potential I saw in him, but he didn't.
81) Your bedtime: Whenever I close my eyes.
82) Under your bed: Carpet
83) The single most important question: Why?
84) Your bad time of the day: Only when someone or something pisses me off, I'm usually all good other than that.
85) Your worst fear(s): Dying in a car accident.
86) The weather you like:78 degrees..
87) The time? Almost 3pm( I did this meme yesterday I was bored)
88) The date? September 1st, 2006 ( I did this meme yesterday I was bored)
89) The best trick you ever played on someone: Placing a bucket of water over the door and laughing my ass off when it falls on someone...I should do that to my dad right now!!!...*lol* He the one that taught me that...*lol*
90) The weirdest food or drink that you like: I don't know, I like Calamari, sour cream, guacamole, which are things most people don't like...I don't know why?
91) Theme Song: "All I Need" - Jay-Z and "Everyday Struggle"-Biggie
92) The hardest thing about growing up: Ummm, I been grown, had no choice but to be grown once my mother left at the age of 11.
93) Your funniest experience: That pissy incident with that guy out West, if yall read yall know what I'm talking about.
94) Your scariest moment:Being an accomplice to a petty robbery...
95) The silliest thing you've done: Pissin in a White Castle Supersized cup and throwing it out the window on the highway....*lol* SOmeone was pissed off....or rather pissed on....*lol*
96) The funniest or most desperate thing you've done to get the attention of the opposite sex? Ummmmm,nothing, I just open my mouth and express my feelings is that desperate?
97) The scariest thing that's ever happened while with your friend(s): When they were shooting in the club parking lot, in 1999 here in Dallas, we was parking lot pimpin cause we couldn't get in, but the place where they started shooting was where we just left, my instinct told me to ride away, glad I listened, cause I was the closest to the exit
98) The best feeling in the world: Unconditional love.
99) The worst feeling in the world: Being lied to or stolen from or sold a dream.
100) 3 people you tag: Whoever wants to do this long ass shit...
But RobMack, Dynasty, and Missy, be my guest...make this the threesome that never happened...*lol*

MEME A DAMN LONG ONE at that...

DAMN Butterfli, this meme long ass hell....
But I don't have nothing else to do so....

1. How tall are you barefoot?
5 feet 3 and a half inches....

2. Have you ever flown first-class?
Naw, but I did get an upgrade to business class....

3. One of your favorite books when you were a child?
The Cat in the Hat, Green Eggs and Ham.

4. A good restaurant in your city?
Heaven on 7

5. What is your favorite small appliance?
Blender

6. One person that never fails to make you laugh?
Drew, Budd's little brother.

7. What’s your favorite Christmas song?
"The Christmas Song"

8. What was the first music that you ever bought?
My first album was The Boys, "Dial My Heart"

9. Do you do push-ups?
Yes....I need to get back on my grind

10. What was one of your favorite games as a child?
Monopoly

11.What is the one thing that you cook that always receives compliments?
Everything....my BBQ, potato salad, spaghetti....I'm BBQin this weekend....

12. When you were twelve years old, what did you want to be when you grew up?
A real estate developer...

13. Your favorite Soup of the Day?
Broccoli Cheese

14. What in your life are you most grateful for?
My son...

15. Have you ever met someone famous?
Tony Brown of Tony Brown's Journal, NO I.D., Common, R. Pissy Kelly , and others, I did a whole post about this...

16. Date Of Birth?
2-11-80

17. Top 3 thoughts at this exact moment:
a. I'm hungry.
b. My daddy is getting on my damn nerves, I need to hurry up and get outta here.
c. I can't wait for my period to leave.

18. Three people you're thinking about right now:
a. my father's lil sexy contry co-worker, Skeet...*lol*
b. PCC, he calls me more now that I'm gone.....
c. Main, he loves me, but we will never be together like that...but I love him back, as a cool as friend/brother.

19. Name five drinks you regularly drink:
Water, Hennessy with RedBull, Coke, Grape Juice, Apple Cranberry Juice

20. From what news source do you receive the bulk of your news?
I hate watching the news, its depressing and biased. I listen to WVON Black Talk of Chicago.

21. Current hair?
Cornrows

22. Current worry?
I smoked an ittie bittie piece of a blunt, now I may be dirty for my drug test.

23. Current hate?
My dad

24. Favorite place to be?
On the WestSide of Chicago with my homeboys, drinkin and talkin shit. In my own shit...

25. Least favorite place to be?
Where I am now, in someone else's home. Having to listen to their shit....Its only temporary though, I'll try to man up for the greater cause.

26. Do you consider yourself well organized?
I can be a little anal with it.

27. Do you believe in a afterlife?
Yes.

28. Where do you think you will be in 10 Yrs?
I plan on being back in Chicago, well established, gettig Kaeven ready to go to HighSchool at my and his father's alma mater.

29. Do you burn or tan?
Tan

30. Who was the last blogger you hung out with?
Teej, Nameliar...

31. Are you more optimistic or pessimistic about the future?
Optimistic

32. Last time you had an alcoholic drink?
Wednesday.

33. What songs do you sing in the shower?
Whatever song thats in my head.

34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a kid?
Freddy Kruger, my deceased auntie, the first and only funeral I ever attended.

35. What’s in your pockets right now?
I don't have any pockets.

36. Last thing that made you laugh?
Kaeven....

37. Best bed sheets you had as a child?
The denim designed bed sheets.

38. Worst injury you’ve ever had?
I was dragged by a go-kart and the skin on my right elbow was non-existent. The concrete burned my skin to the white meat, forreal...I ain't cry til the doctors started scrubbing that shit with a brillo pad....

39. Favorite song?
"All I Need"-Jay Z

40. How many TVs do you own?
I had 2 before I moved. Gave one away. Now I have one.

41. In the last calendar year, how many people have you told that you love them?
Too many....
My son....everyday
My child's father...everytime I talk to him.
My sister...whenever I talk to her.
Puddy....mistake
PCC....he already knew that.
Budd....I was drunk...*lol*
Main....I do love him like a brother
My auntie...


42. Last person that made you blush?
Skeet

43. Best Compliment received?
"You hold a great conversation."

44. What song is in your head?
"Smell my cologne call it purp by the zone"- Yung Joc "I KNOW You See It" I had no idea what he was saying his cologne was called til I got down here...

45. What is your favorite book?
I just read Slippin' by Y. Blak. It was a great book, based in Chicago's Southside. It dealt with the crack epidemic in our community and shed light on how youngster's are addicted to crack. DAMN....

46. Last meal you cooked for the opposite sex?
That homemade chili I made for Skeet. Well I was making it for my father, son and I, but he invited himself to dinner, so I had to make sure I put my "big toe" in it....*lol*

47. What songs do you want played at your wedding?
Sade- By Your Side

48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
I told all my friends to make sure "All I Need"-Jay Z is playing at my shit.

49. What were you doing at 12 midnight last night?
Sleep and dreaming.

50. What would you like to accomplish with the remaining years of your life?
Economic parity in the black community.