THINKING BACK....(Not another Random Post)

* Today 5 years ago...
* I saw Derry as I was driving to my A+ Certification Class....
*I was driving my Chevy Caprice 2 door...
* He just looked at me...
* A few days prior, I had to break it off with him, I couldn't cheat with him, without feeling guilty.
* That day, I learned I was pregnant.
*I couldn't stay awake in class...

*I spoke to Kevin(my child's father) and he told me what happened...
* I wasn't thinking clearly, I didn't believe it, I thought it was a joke...
* Or the media had they shit mixed up, they always screw shit up, I thought...

*Many people told me to abort because the economy will be fucked and you don't want to bring a baby into this...
*Sorry, I want my baby....

*At first, it didn't bother me, cause I wasn't initially affected by it...
* I didn't lose any money in stocks, hell....
*White people lost it though...

*I find it strange, even enraging that we still look at 911, but what about Katrina...
*Same demo...
*Natural disaster???
*How, when these muthafuckas blew up the levees?
*After the storm passed, there was a loud BOOM!!
*Then it flooded...
*The levees held until they blew that bitch up...
*I'm mad I didn't get to utilize my HBO to see Spike Lee's Joint "When the Levees Broke"
*Which should be titled "When the Levees GOT BLOWN THE FUCK UP!"
*Amazingly, the people with money got out before they were blown up...
*Its not amazing its just a say it with me, C-O-N-spiracy...

*I miss home....
*But being at home ain't gone get me no where (thats so broken english)
*I would be kickin it with the guys getting drunk, tryna hit up a club...
*Or planning a late booty call...
*Or at home watching ON DEMAND...

*Why these niggas always talkin bout "pokin"(robbing) somebody?
*Niggas with mad trick off money...but in the end that shit all comes back to you, 10-fold.

*I can't stop looking at one of my homeboys homeboy's pic on the internet.
*Why was he tryna solicit a prostitute which turned out to be a cop?
*Thats why they call him HOTDICK, HD, or Hi-Def...
*He was so BUSTED that night, I thought he wouldn't make it home...
*Well he might not have made it home, maybe its good he was arrested...
*But why, when you got a girl at the crib?


*All the niggas out West got one of these hats...
*They called 150hat or Wingdings...
*Cause they cost $150 or more, they are customized...
*A nigga will knock yo head off for that hat.??..?...?
*Its a ghetto status symbol...
*I wonder do they wear these down south?????

*Why these marks still ain't sent me my bread?
*Why can't the Unemployment office get shit straight?
*How hard is it to forward mail?
*Now I done won the ebay auction on some limited edition Air Max 90 with Pink, Purple and Gray...and can't pay for them yet, now I will get a negative ebayer rating...SHIT!!
*But I had to have those J's....
*Just so I can say, "Check out my feet/You ain't got these"
*While I'm leaning and rocking with it...

*Now my cell phone gone get cut off, Sprint don't be playing
*And I can't get my hair did...
*And I'm not going out Saturday, cause I don't like not having no bread...
*If I'm lucky this week's check will come before the check that was supposed to be issued 2 weeks ago...
*Let's hope I get lucky, cause I'm tired of looking at my head like this..
*I'm bout ready to put a perm in it...SIKE....
*I'll rough it out a little while longer, but as long as its braided I don't have to worry bout it..

*I'mma twist it up tonight....I hate twisting this shit, its gone take forever...
*I gotta go joggin in the morning...I feel myself eating a little too much, cause I'm bored as hell...
*Even though my pops says I'm in good shape for someone hittin on 30...

*I'm horny...
*Working out will only make me hornier...

*I'm sad for GeorgiaPeach, I wish there was something I could do to help.
*She is taking donations for her mom's funeral.
*We as people don't take advantage of insurance...
*But hell, if you struggling to pay your bills, why would you add another bill?
* I want insurance, but if the job don't pay for it, then its just another one of those things that go undone.


*Speaking of insurance, State Farm, Allstate and all other insurance companies didn't pay out to the Katrina victims claiming it was a natural disaster...
*Well blowing up the levees ain't a natural disaster, sorry...

*Ok, I gotta wipe my ass, TMI, and I use baby wipes, then I gotta take a shower....
*Yea, a true germaphobe, and the bathroom stays Pine Fresh and disinfected with bleach...

A MOMENT OF SILENCE

GeorgiaPeach's mom passed this weekend.
I hate death, cause it comes without warning.
I don't know what to say, I can never say I understand someone's pain, cause I haven't lost anyone close and dear to me.

I can only imagine, if I lost my son, I would want to die as well.
What would be my purpose of living?

I know when my sister got hit by a car, I went into shambles....

When my child's father first went down, I went into shambles...

But they are still with us, so I can imagine how I would be a complete zombie if I were to lose them.

I don't know how you're feeling Georgia, but I can only imagine.

I know my mother isn't my favorite person, but I wouldn't know what to do without her....

I know you and your mom have been through a trying time, lately...
I can only say....
I pray for you and your family's sanity and peace during this trying time.

GOD doesn't do anything you can't handle and he doesn't do things for no reason.
Even though, she's not here with you in the physical, she's still with you in spirit.

She's now your ANGEL, looking down on you, to protect you.

I LOVE YOU GEORGIA!!!!(Let me know if you need anything)

*tears*

RIP CeCe...
You're in a better place now....

I LOVE THIS SONG!!!
This was my favorite song from Sesame Street...



I sing this to Kaeven at night...he loves it!
Thanks to YOUTUBE, I was able to let him see and hear the real song.. cause I can't sang...

Redundant Randomness(Not another Random Post)

* I'm horny....aren't I always? I think I'm a nymphomaniac.....
*Honesty, I do....
*I don't beat my meat as often as I used to, privacy is a major issue.
*I do have a waterproof vibrator, so go figure why the water bill is sky high....

*"Oh I think he like me, better yet I know!"
*He calls or texts me errrday...
*He looks like 2Pac, especially when I'm drunk.
* Another nigga with previous ties....*sigh*
*Well, she was gone for a week, so it was a free for all, or as my guys out West would call, a LollaPalooza....*lol*(They so silly)
*She's back now, so now its time to start the "BIG FREEZE"...
* He ain't never had it so good...
*Word on the street is, he is having second thoughts about his girlfriend and kicking himself in the ass for moving her in, rather, letting her move herself in....
*I'm glad Pops is in the middle of this, cause I get both sides of the story, plus some good game advice.
*We going out, next weekend....(that's a long time, but in the meanwhile, I'll be using my Ben Wa Balls...*lol*)

*I got 2 interviews this week from one day of diligent job searching....YAAHHH
*Good, now I don't have to work with Pops, him, and his live in girlfriend....
*She works in HR, so she would have full access to my info...not GOOD!

* I guess Pops know what he was doing after all....
*But why his girl be sneaking hugs to my Pops at work, and she be calling my Pops...
*Why is there a hermaphodite working at they job? And word on the street is she kissed him/her....
*If he only knew....
*She be sending her guy money cause he in jail and she gone bail on him as soon as he get out...
*But I'll never hate on another so, I just hope he does the right thing....

*They need to hurry up and send me my lil dust...playing with my money is like playing with my emotions....

*Kaeven eat like the end of the world is coming....he done ate all the food...He will eat you outta house and home...
*I can't wait til my Pops give him a whupping, I can't wait!...*lol*

*Oh shit, I gotta get some of that STAT FLUSH, shit....I may have to submit urine...MAY is the key word...better safe than sorry...

*Why is daycare cheaper out here? Hell everything is cheaper out here....except braids....

*Why did I watch Flavor of Love for the first time last night? Now I'm hooked!
*New York is in the HOUSE!!!!
*Thats gone be GOOD!!!
*I'm so mad Foofy got rid of Its Like That...she was cool as hell....
*Am I trippin or do the broads look better this season?
*Ok, maybe not they face...except Beautiful...
*But guys don't care too much about the face anyway, they'll put a bag on they head....
*Why all the girls frontin on the white girls?
*Is Buckwild a product of incest?
* I was watching Discovery Channel and they did a survey, believe it or not, women have just as many sexual partners as men, but for the sake of not looking like whores, they don't count them all....

*Why did they arrest Mos Def for performing "Katrina Clap"? Muthafuckas what happened to freedom of speech?



*I need to get into school for the next semester....the Nursing field is always in high demand and I hate corporate AmeriKKKa....

*Why is she emailing me? She blew me when she said that "golddiggin bullshit", convo over....

*OOOOOH...why did T just send me this? LOOK AT BUFFIE THE BOOTY GO!!!



*I miss home, just a lil bit....he makes me not miss it so much...

*I LOVE Murphy Laws on Sex....(Ok, maybe I am really a nymph, but yall should read it if yall haven't already)
*I have many favorites but this one is the one that sticks out the most "Sex takes up the least amount of time and causes the most amount of trouble."

*Yall wish me well tommorrow...
THANKS

MY DAD

(Note: Thats not his girlfriend. My dad just likes to flirt with all the women he comes into contact with. The guy in the back, thats his girlfriend. Thats why he looking like that.)

What you think about my dad, do I look him?
Am I a splitting image?

THE LONGEST LONGEST Meme, longer than the other

1) Full Name: Yall ready???
Tamenika
Laqui
Lynn
2) Name Backwards: Akinemat, looks like an African word...probably is...
3) Were you named after anyone? My mother made it up when she was in high school, the middle name Lynn is the same name as all the women on my father's side of the family...
4) Does your name mean anything? It means my mother is Ghetto...*lol*
5) Nick Name(s): Nika, Nique, Faye, T, Tammy, but if you call me that you will not get a response or I will punch you....
6) Screen Name(s):sweet1coochbrown....my baby daddy gave me that name.
7) Date Of Birth: 2/11/80
8) Place of Birth: Chicago, IL
9) Nationality: African American, wait, thats not a nationality...*lol*
10) Current Location: Dallas, Hot ass Texas
11) Sign: Aquarius
12) Religion: Agnostic
13) Height: 5'4
14) Skin Color: Caramel
15) Shoe Size: 6 in boys, 7 1/2 women
16) Hair colour: Cinnamon Brown
17) Eye colour: Dark Brown
18) What do you look like? Like a freak...*lol*
19) Innie or Outie? Innie, with stretch marks, that Kaeven like to rub as if its some spectacle...*lol*
20) Right, Lefty, or Ambidextrous? I can do both, but I'm right handed
21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other?Other, I'm tri-sexual, I'll try anything...*lol*
22) Best friend(s): Ummmmmmm....
23) Best friend you trust the most: I trust my first the most.....T
24) Best friends {your sex}: Yall know I don't fuck with females too tough, they shiesty...
.25) Best friends of the opposite sex: Main and T. Both Virgos...
26) Best Bud(s): Budd...*lol* Nah, he cool peoples, he tells it how it is and I love that.
27) Boyfriend / Girlfriend: Who needs a boyfriend when you can have your cake and eat it too?
28) Crush: I guess I'm like a man in this aspect, cause once the deed is done, I no longer crush you...
29) Parent(s):My mammie in Chicago, and My pops is here in Dallas, imposing upon my freedom.
30) Worst Enemy: Anyone imposing upon my freedom.
31) Favourite on-line Guy(s): I don't have one, I like men in real life....
32) Favourite on-line Girl(s): Missy, cause she gone get it one of these days...*lol*
33) Funniest friend: Drew, Budds brother makes me laugh til my guts hurt, every rep...
34) Craziest friend: Ain't nobody crazier than me, NsaneLeeSane...*lol*
35) Advice Friend: I'll talk to Budd, plus he has legal knowledge so I might can turn shit into CHA CHING...$$$
36) Loudest Friend:Vel be loud as hell, I met him thru Main, and they all treat me like Family...
37) Person you cry with: I cry alone...

Do You Have...
38) Any sisters: 1, she's 4 years younger
39) Any brothers: I wish I did have a big brother...but Main can be my fake big brother although he doesn't want to be. But it only seems right because his real sister looks just like me, well thats what everybody keep saying...
40) Any pets: I hate pets.
41) A Disease: I have some personality disorders, self diagnosed, we all have something...I think I have OCD too...I'm a germaphobe..
42) A Pager: lol
43) A Personal phone line: "I got 2 cell phones who wanna call me dog?"-Jeezy
44) A Cell phone: "I got 2 cell phones who wanna call me dog?"-Jeezy
45) A Lava lamp: I had one, I left it here in Dallas, lemme ask my daddy where it is....he prolly broke it in a drunken stupor.
46) A Pool or hot tub:There's a pool in the apartment complex, waiting on me and Kaeven's bathing suit to get shipped so I can go sunbathing...
47) A Car: I sold my car before I got here, the White Angel, I wanted to cry...
Describe Your...
48) Personality: honest, unbiased, stubborn, quick-tempered.
.49) Driving: I drive like the police in Chicago, but here, I must drive like Ms. Daisy, cause they will lock you up for anything down here.
50) Car or one you want: I want a heavy Chevy, 84Caprice or 93Impala
51) Room: Right now its clean, but later on, thats a differnet story, once Kaeven destroys it...
52) What’s missing? My own damn space...
53) School: Whitney Young Magnet High, I'll be able to go back to college, now that I have some support for my son...
54) Bed: Air Mattress...comfy
55) Relationship with your parent(s): BLAH!!! Don't get me started....

Do you...
56) Believe in yourself:I guess...*lol* That doesn't sound to sure does it?
57) Do you believe in love at first sight? I do, thats what happened with me and my child's father, I doubt it will happen again..
58) Consider yourself a good listener: Yea, if I want to hear it, if not, I will not listen
59) Sleep in PJs: sweat shorts, white t...or whatever I fall asleep with on..
60) Get Along with your parents: JESUS CHRIST, stop asking me that...
61) Save your e-mail conversations: Some, I saved Puddy's and some of my ex's...
62) Pray: One day last week...I blogged about it.
63) Believe in reincarnation: Yes..."When I die I'll be back reincarnated as a muthafuckin mack-11 cause in heaven there's no shortage on G's"-Tupac
64) Like to make fun of people: Its the best, thats what I miss the most about the Chi...
65) Like to talk on the phone: If my minutes are free...and if its not a one-sided convo
66) Like to eat: LOVE IT!!!
67) Like to drive: Not when I have to everyday, but when I'm BUSTED, yes...or when I just want some fresh air, yes. But not during traffic...
68) Get motion sickness: If I'm BUSTED
69) Eat the stems of broccoli: Broccoli is the BEST!!
70) Eat Chicken fingers with a fork: Chicken fingers are finger foods why would I unless I was in a restrurant then I would cut them and eat them with a fork so I don't appear like I have no home training...
71) Dream in colour: Yes, even though they say you dream in black in white....
72) Type with your fingers on home row: Yes
73) Sleep with a stuffed animal:The closest thing to a stuffed animal is Kaeven or my pillow.

What Is…
74) Right next to you: My shot glass of Hennessy
75) On the walls of your room: Some paintings that match the room.
76) On your mouse pad: My fingers, its a laptop.
77) Your dream car: Chevy, dang this is getting redundant.
78) Your dream date: I don't dream about dates...
79) Your dream honeymoon spot: Vegas, I plan to get eloped...
80) Your dream husband/wife: My child's father if he could live up to his true potential, the potential I saw in him, but he didn't.
81) Your bedtime: Whenever I close my eyes.
82) Under your bed: Carpet
83) The single most important question: Why?
84) Your bad time of the day: Only when someone or something pisses me off, I'm usually all good other than that.
85) Your worst fear(s): Dying in a car accident.
86) The weather you like:78 degrees..
87) The time? Almost 3pm( I did this meme yesterday I was bored)
88) The date? September 1st, 2006 ( I did this meme yesterday I was bored)
89) The best trick you ever played on someone: Placing a bucket of water over the door and laughing my ass off when it falls on someone...I should do that to my dad right now!!!...*lol* He the one that taught me that...*lol*
90) The weirdest food or drink that you like: I don't know, I like Calamari, sour cream, guacamole, which are things most people don't like...I don't know why?
91) Theme Song: "All I Need" - Jay-Z and "Everyday Struggle"-Biggie
92) The hardest thing about growing up: Ummm, I been grown, had no choice but to be grown once my mother left at the age of 11.
93) Your funniest experience: That pissy incident with that guy out West, if yall read yall know what I'm talking about.
94) Your scariest moment:Being an accomplice to a petty robbery...
95) The silliest thing you've done: Pissin in a White Castle Supersized cup and throwing it out the window on the highway....*lol* SOmeone was pissed off....or rather pissed on....*lol*
96) The funniest or most desperate thing you've done to get the attention of the opposite sex? Ummmmm,nothing, I just open my mouth and express my feelings is that desperate?
97) The scariest thing that's ever happened while with your friend(s): When they were shooting in the club parking lot, in 1999 here in Dallas, we was parking lot pimpin cause we couldn't get in, but the place where they started shooting was where we just left, my instinct told me to ride away, glad I listened, cause I was the closest to the exit
98) The best feeling in the world: Unconditional love.
99) The worst feeling in the world: Being lied to or stolen from or sold a dream.
100) 3 people you tag: Whoever wants to do this long ass shit...
But RobMack, Dynasty, and Missy, be my guest...make this the threesome that never happened...*lol*

MEME A DAMN LONG ONE at that...

DAMN Butterfli, this meme long ass hell....
But I don't have nothing else to do so....

1. How tall are you barefoot?
5 feet 3 and a half inches....

2. Have you ever flown first-class?
Naw, but I did get an upgrade to business class....

3. One of your favorite books when you were a child?
The Cat in the Hat, Green Eggs and Ham.

4. A good restaurant in your city?
Heaven on 7

5. What is your favorite small appliance?
Blender

6. One person that never fails to make you laugh?
Drew, Budd's little brother.

7. What’s your favorite Christmas song?
"The Christmas Song"

8. What was the first music that you ever bought?
My first album was The Boys, "Dial My Heart"

9. Do you do push-ups?
Yes....I need to get back on my grind

10. What was one of your favorite games as a child?
Monopoly

11.What is the one thing that you cook that always receives compliments?
Everything....my BBQ, potato salad, spaghetti....I'm BBQin this weekend....

12. When you were twelve years old, what did you want to be when you grew up?
A real estate developer...

13. Your favorite Soup of the Day?
Broccoli Cheese

14. What in your life are you most grateful for?
My son...

15. Have you ever met someone famous?
Tony Brown of Tony Brown's Journal, NO I.D., Common, R. Pissy Kelly , and others, I did a whole post about this...

16. Date Of Birth?
2-11-80

17. Top 3 thoughts at this exact moment:
a. I'm hungry.
b. My daddy is getting on my damn nerves, I need to hurry up and get outta here.
c. I can't wait for my period to leave.

18. Three people you're thinking about right now:
a. my father's lil sexy contry co-worker, Skeet...*lol*
b. PCC, he calls me more now that I'm gone.....
c. Main, he loves me, but we will never be together like that...but I love him back, as a cool as friend/brother.

19. Name five drinks you regularly drink:
Water, Hennessy with RedBull, Coke, Grape Juice, Apple Cranberry Juice

20. From what news source do you receive the bulk of your news?
I hate watching the news, its depressing and biased. I listen to WVON Black Talk of Chicago.

21. Current hair?
Cornrows

22. Current worry?
I smoked an ittie bittie piece of a blunt, now I may be dirty for my drug test.

23. Current hate?
My dad

24. Favorite place to be?
On the WestSide of Chicago with my homeboys, drinkin and talkin shit. In my own shit...

25. Least favorite place to be?
Where I am now, in someone else's home. Having to listen to their shit....Its only temporary though, I'll try to man up for the greater cause.

26. Do you consider yourself well organized?
I can be a little anal with it.

27. Do you believe in a afterlife?
Yes.

28. Where do you think you will be in 10 Yrs?
I plan on being back in Chicago, well established, gettig Kaeven ready to go to HighSchool at my and his father's alma mater.

29. Do you burn or tan?
Tan

30. Who was the last blogger you hung out with?
Teej, Nameliar...

31. Are you more optimistic or pessimistic about the future?
Optimistic

32. Last time you had an alcoholic drink?
Wednesday.

33. What songs do you sing in the shower?
Whatever song thats in my head.

34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a kid?
Freddy Kruger, my deceased auntie, the first and only funeral I ever attended.

35. What’s in your pockets right now?
I don't have any pockets.

36. Last thing that made you laugh?
Kaeven....

37. Best bed sheets you had as a child?
The denim designed bed sheets.

38. Worst injury you’ve ever had?
I was dragged by a go-kart and the skin on my right elbow was non-existent. The concrete burned my skin to the white meat, forreal...I ain't cry til the doctors started scrubbing that shit with a brillo pad....

39. Favorite song?
"All I Need"-Jay Z

40. How many TVs do you own?
I had 2 before I moved. Gave one away. Now I have one.

41. In the last calendar year, how many people have you told that you love them?
Too many....
My son....everyday
My child's father...everytime I talk to him.
My sister...whenever I talk to her.
Puddy....mistake
PCC....he already knew that.
Budd....I was drunk...*lol*
Main....I do love him like a brother
My auntie...


42. Last person that made you blush?
Skeet

43. Best Compliment received?
"You hold a great conversation."

44. What song is in your head?
"Smell my cologne call it purp by the zone"- Yung Joc "I KNOW You See It" I had no idea what he was saying his cologne was called til I got down here...

45. What is your favorite book?
I just read Slippin' by Y. Blak. It was a great book, based in Chicago's Southside. It dealt with the crack epidemic in our community and shed light on how youngster's are addicted to crack. DAMN....

46. Last meal you cooked for the opposite sex?
That homemade chili I made for Skeet. Well I was making it for my father, son and I, but he invited himself to dinner, so I had to make sure I put my "big toe" in it....*lol*

47. What songs do you want played at your wedding?
Sade- By Your Side

48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
I told all my friends to make sure "All I Need"-Jay Z is playing at my shit.

49. What were you doing at 12 midnight last night?
Sleep and dreaming.

50. What would you like to accomplish with the remaining years of your life?
Economic parity in the black community.

I'm HERE!!!

The country road...
I love it, its so peaceful...
Gas is $2.65 a gallon, everywhere...
Its HOT!!

Here's my view from the balcony....
I love the greenery, it has a calming effect...


And Kaeven is so HAPPY!! I'm glad, right now, him and my dad are making chicken and dumplings....

The flight here was also cool. I didn't get misty eyed until the plane actually took off. I blinked real fast so that no tears will fall, then I went to sleep. I love sleeping on the plane. I made sure to get Kaeven a window seat so he could get the full experience.

There were so many white folks on the plane, I swear white folks make me itch...
I had to shower soon as I touched down, I could feel their fleas jumping on me.

I went to visit my child's father before I left, he was sad I was leaving to Dallas, since it is so far away....but I can't move with his mother cause she back on that shit....
He will try to get paroled here to Dallas though.

I saw PCC once again...
He might be doing 10 (8) years in the fed joint, if he cops out.
If not they gone give him 8 years for each pistol....13 pistols times 8 = LIFE...
I told him

"You gon' take 'em/Are you gon' take that shit to trial/And gon' be denied/Violate probation when you just got caught, with that ride/That alibi ain't gon' work" - Juvenile "Take them 5"

Anyway, we had a funky good time...*lol*

I saw Budd earlier that day...so what, yea I did a double bubb in one day...I was leaving shit...*lol*

Budd took me to see the building he owns, cause once he moves there, he wants me to make sure I will be able to find him, if I ever come back....

I received calls from both of them once I touched down.

"If I was a bitch, I'll be crying right now...you coming back and will you visit me in the feds?" -PCC

"I ain't tryna be on no soft shit right now, but I gone really miss you...you not coming back, are you?" - Budd

I'm cool now though, I'm glad to be gone. I'm confusing people down here with my ChiTown slang...blessing bottles and carrying on....

My pops got this lil fine ass co-worker he invited over, we drank a fifth of Henn, I made homemade chili, and we kicked the bo-bos...
They loved the chili.
Pops says he's off limits cause he got a girl, but if he didn't he wouldn't mind me dating him, cause he a "Real Nigga"...
Well I like his country ass and he's a Gemini...

My dad just said to me, he don't know what he gone do with the two of us....*lol*
If he only know what had happened last night once he went to sleep....Don't my daddy know he can't control me?

Anyway, my dad got me a gig at his job, doing tech support, until my other connect hooks me up with the$18/hr gig.

I can't wait!!!

Blogger Convention(Hooks vs Bricks)

Greeting Everyone,

I must say that today was an emotionally exciting day.

First of all, I was able to meet fellow bloggers, Nameliar and Teej. I've already met Nameliar but whatever...*lol*
Other than that, we had a ball or a least what I thought was a ball.

OH YEA, Deeds faked us, pulled a GeorgiaPeach move....I really wanted to meet you Deeds...I guess you had a hot date....

At least ROBMACK, had an excuse, work.....

Name brought her girlfriend,(I forget her name cause I was going to the car filling my cup with Hennessy..*lol*) she was cool.

Teej invited his homeboy, I think his name was Dave, don't quote me on this, but he's the guy to know if you want to be a stand-in or extra in any feature film...

We spoke of blogs. I had to cleverly keep my blog from getting in the hands of the persons I brought. I brought, Budd, his girlfriend and my homeboy Maine. If any of you have been reading you would know why I didn't want this information to leak...at least until I get the hell outta dodge. Now they all want blogs...*lol* But I never told them where...*lol* And made sure that Name and Teej followed me with the secretiveness(is that a word) of our blgger society...*lol*

Anywho....here are some pictures of our blogger convention...(Missy, Teej told us to throw up the M for you....so here it goes...)




We even managed to get free sundaes on the house because our Heroin-addict waitress took forever and a day to fill (I think her name was Tiffany, Nameliar correct me if I'm wrong)our order.

So upon receiving our order of a large chocolate sundae. I dived in head first. It was very tasty I might add.... Then here comes Budd, he flops a scoop in my face...












I yell, "FOOD FIGHT" and then I lodge a scoop toward him.(Can't take the ghetto outta some folks I tell ya...*lol*) I saw it hit the wall and then I heard him say, "OH NOW ITS ON!!", so I began to run in my stilettos heels toward the exit. I made it unscathed. But the door and other patrons received what was meant for me.

I was dying laughing when I made it outside and here comes Budd....












We were dying laughing and he was saying how fast I ran in my heels and how lucky I was, cause I was gone catch one....


Anyway, the whole night turned SOUTH....

I made the deadly mistake and said the word "HOOKS".

Hooks is a deragotory term used toward anyone who ride under the 5 point star. (GANGBANGIN SHIT) I mentioned it because we were in Hyde Park, home of the BlackStone Rangers and I know for a fact, that they have killed most of my homeboys...which are GD FOLKS who ride under the 6 point star....

All hell must've broke loose. Budd and Maine looked at me as if they wanted to murder me, over a word.....a simple word such as BITCH or NIGGA...

Yes....
They took it to heart being ViceLords and 4 Corner Husters, but no longer affilated...
I can't tell...

Anywho....

They gave me a pass cause I'm a girl, besides I apologized, not thinking they would take it to heart considering I was talking about those people that killed my people.

They supposedly forgave me. But Budd said he'll take it out on me tommorrow...(I can't wait..*lol*)

But after further thought and further convo with Maine...

I said...

"I don't believe how a word could have such an affect over you....

The same white folks that called me NIGGA, you still work for and I bet if they called you a nigga, you would still work for them...

That's like me getting all upset over being called a BITCH...

Besides that, GANGS were created to keep us divided and conquered...
A few moments ago, I was yalls girl, but because of a word THEY made to be deragatory....Now you hate me...

Yall falling right into the plan and yall supposedly don't bang anymore, but how could a word have such an affect on you....

Larry Hoover didn't create the GD FOLKS, just as, Chief Malik didn't create the BLACKSTONES....the government, the white MAN, created them to cause chaos and keep us divided and yall are falling into this negative bullshit.....

Yall was ready to kill me over that word and for what? What does that word mean exactly?"

No one could tell me the actual defintion, its just deragotory....

I HATE THAT SHIT!!!!

I hate that shit so much....

I never, ever called on GOD....

(Except when I asked to be blessed with a son)

But I haven't spoke to the LORD in a long time....

We were supposed to go into a club, but I was crying, literally crying out to GOD....


"Please help these brothers, see this bullshit....LORD PLEASE, I NEVER ASK YOU FOR ANYTHING BUT I ASK YOU TO SAVE MY BROTHERS, let them see this is all bullshit and part of the masterplan. LORD I will give my life for my people, but not in VAIN...etc. etc. etc...."

I must've cried til I was blue in the face and till I couldn't cry no more... I asked the LORD to please here my prayers...

I'm about to cry now...the shit hurts me so BAD....

I have ties to my ancestors so deep, they talk to me...
We are not to be here killing over colors or stars or the way your hat is banged or what set you represent....We are supposed to be in unity if we want to EVER acheive anything....

If I don't live to see nothing else, I want to live to see that...and the LORD knows it in my heart...cause I cried out to HIM tonite, I'm crying right now...the shit HURTS deeply....

Fred Hampton
Huey Newton
Malcolm X

Did not die to see our people living like this...so why are my brothers insisting on this way of living, claiming they've dropped their flags....

GOD, I HOPE YOU HEAR MY PRAYERS, cause you know what I want more than anything than life itself.....

THE UNITY OF MY PEOPLE...

NIGGAS GET OFF THAT BULLSHIT!!!

Its been a long time coming...

Today marks an entire year I've been here in the blogverse...
I can't believe I made it this far, so many times I wanted to quit.
So many times, I've changed my blog address.

I've met so many wonderful, funny, crazy people.
I've learned that there are a lot of people out there just like me.
I can't believe we're having a Bloggers Convention on my Blog-versary

Some bloggers keep it real at all costs, I love that!
ALL YOU MALE BLOGGERS HAVE PISSED ME OFF FOR THE DAY, because yall haven't responded honestly to my last post. Is there some MANLAW that forbids you from commenting on that subject matter?
Some bloggers are haters....I hate that...
Some bloggers are horny all the time, just like me.
Some bloggers have trouble finding a suitable mate, like me.
Some bloggers have some of the same problems as I do.
Some bloggers are freaks like me...yall know who yall are...
Some bloggers have supported me....Ms. Perdie, Dell Gines...
Some bloggers have given wise words of advice just when I needed it....Nikki, That Girl Tam...
Some bloggers don't blog anymore cause they traded their blog for myspace....GEORGIAPEACH, I'm so mad at you!
Some bloggers are very insightful.
Some bloggers are boring.
Some bloggers are too funny!
Some bloggers are beautiful.
Some bloggers are ugly inside and out. (They'll never post a picture, just hate on everyone else)
Some bloggers like to leave anonymous boguish comments, cause they're cowards.
Some bloggers aren't afraid to speak up...I love that, keep it real and stand behind what you say.
Some bloggers have turned their blog into money. (How can I be down?)
Some bloggers have sold merchandise on their blog.
Some bloggers have sexual blogs.
Some bloggers even post sexual pictures.
Some bloggers don't cuss.
Some bloggers will cuss you out and do it very well....JoJo Dancer aka Insanity
Some bloggers comment on my blog daily.
Some bloggers just come and read my shit and don't say nothing...(I hate that!)
Some bloggers blog daily, I love that!
Some bloggers blog when they feel like it. (I can't knock that, I'm the Queen of "when I feel like it")
Some bloggers have met fellow bloggers.
Some bloggers have spoken on the phone to fellow bloggers.

Okay, I'm done with my "some bloggers" rant.....

The Life of a Man...

This is gonna be a short post.
I'm gonna ask for more feedback than I do talk.

I truly feel I have done everything a man has or ever wanted to do, sexually.

Ok, that's it.

Now men, tell me what it is that you have wanted to do or have done, or simply just some of your wild fantasies. (Shit, I mean, shit a woman isn't supposed to do cause of the double standard)

Then by your answers I will be able to say, I have or have not lived my life as a man, in a woman's body.

Friday and Saturday Night Lights...

Greetings....

I've been kickin it so hard for my last week here in the Chi...

Friday, my guys and I drank 2 Fifths of Henn and then hit the club, the hood club. I had a blast, they played all my jams and I was so BUSTED (drunk), I couldn't stop dancing. My body was at one with the beat, I know I was jamming cause all eyes were on me and the bitches were lookin at me with hate in they eyes....

One guy told me to take it down low, and thats when I fell...*lol*, but I got back up and kept dancing, my dance partner fell too, cause he was drunk with me and tried to get low with me....*lol* But we players so we brushed that shit off and kept it moving....

Once I got in the club, I switched it up to striaght shots of Remy Martin...bad move...
Once I got to my homeboy's crib, I fell and needed assistance to the restroom, several times. Amazingly, I didn't "call Earl" (vomit), but I did fall in the tub trying to get my pants back on...
I was in no condition to drive, so I slept where I was....

Saturday, it was back on and poppin. We decided to take our adventures outside of the hood and kick it with the white folks downtown, for a change in scenary and pace. My homeboy is so crazy...Now you all know that when you talk to white people you have to appear less threathning so you don't scare them, right? Well my homeboy says, "YOU COMING OUT?", cause we wanted the parking space. He really scared the white man, he couldn't even get his keys in the door cause he was shaking so much. I never seen anyone drive off so fast...*lol*

Anyway, someone was having a party at some club, I think it was called Zenture or Venture. I never got to see the name of the club, because the bouncers wouldn't let us in, they said my homeboys clothes were too baggy. Mind you he's a big nigga, so basically, they wanted him to have the gay white boy tight fitted button up shirt look. I'm glad we didn't get in, because there were all Asians in the line, and I just knew the most hip hop song they would play would be Nelly Furtado, "Promiscuous"....and who wants to pay a dub just to hear that song?

Someone tell me why when white girls get drunk, they wanna talk and touch on you?
This bitch was walking down the street drunk and belching no-stop, she felt the need to apologize and now she wants to touch me, "Your glasses are so cute on you..." I'm just looking at her like, "get yo hands off of me, I don't know you!" She then goes on to tell us about a bachelorette party, which she describes as an "Extravanganza"....I started busting up laughing and I walked across the streeet so I wouldn't be too rude by laughing in her face.

So we stayed downtown, and headed to the Reunion. Ok, this was more my type of club. They had 2 VIP sections cause Letoya was there and some NBA nigga Brian Cook. I walked my black ass right into the VIP section, acting like I belonged. Then I went to get my homeboys, but they got stopped at the door, so they was just looking at me all salty, while I danced in the VIP room. I was standing right next to the NBA nigga and I didn't know who the hell he was, it wasn't Carmelo, so.....
My guys later on told me who it was, then one of them gone say, Brian Cook looks like my son...*lol*

We left there and went back to the hood for a while and kicked it in the club. Oh yea, I forgot we grabbed another bottle before we hit the club, and yes by that time I was wasted. So wasted, I called Puddy's dumb ass....I don't know why I did, I guess to see if I still had it like that, even though I didn't want to have sex with him....well he gave me the cold shoulder....so FUCK HIM...*lol*

Sunday morning, I got my back broke in lovely by Budd and that was an "Extravaganza"....

****Oh yea I forgot to mention****
How I was grabbing girl's asses in the club.....*lol* I was so drunk I even grabbed Budd's girlfriend's ass.....and tried to holla at her...*lol*

Why was I layin in the middle of the street?
Cause I wanted to do it, like they did on the movie "The Notebook" and I must say it was peaceful.....

Planes, Trains, and Automobiles

I'm trying to decide whether I should fly (aren't we on high alert??) or take a train (to see the sights and have a day just to meddle in my thoughts).

It would be cheaper and quicker to fly, but I've always wanted to have a cabin on a train. I think the train ride for Kaeven would be fun, hell, I'll have fun as well.

The last time I took a train was in 95. Me and my sister went to Kilgore TX, to visit my grandfather. It was a long ride and I couldn't hardly sleep in those little ass seats and having to watch our backs. Perverts were walking around and young boys were trying to holla.

I swore to myself that next time I would get a cabin, so I wouldn't have that headache or backache.

I'm not in a rush to get to Dallas, I would love to take the train ride. But the flight is cheaper. I really want the bedroom liner with the bathroom and shower, cause I hate using public restrooms. That way I would never have to leave my room and food service is included, but that will cost $200 more. You have to pay for comfort.

I just hope the Taliban ain't on the plane or that the train doesn't derail.

I pretty much know what I'm going to do, but I would love to hear what you guys would favor more....

Lemme know your thoughts...

New Story

I've posted a new story on the Beat Ya Meat Section (http://beautyisabeast.blogspot.com/)

I'm just horny...sorry...

THIS CAN'T BE LIFE, THIS CAN'T BE LOVE...

What kind of mother will tell their own child and grandchild to live in a shelter?
The kind of mother I have, thats who...

Who will put their man before their child?
Not I, but she will...

Her man is homeless and in a moment, I will be as well...so who does she take in?
The answer isn't rocket science, but she will take him in ...

I don't hate her, I just laugh at her....
Funny how she showed false concern when I was to move with someone else's mother...
Now that that's a bust....she's reverted back to her true self.

HE told me not to go anywhere I don't want to be.
That would be Minnesota...I'd rather be in Dallas, hands down.
It's far from Chicago, far from my child's father.
Kaeven will be hurt, not seeing his father.
I do what I do for Kaeven, but it looks like, he will just have to miss his dad for a while.
They say, I could get them lame niggas bread in Minnesota.
When have you ever known me to be out for a nigga's bread lame or not?
That ain't me or is that my concern.
I need my own bread period.
Besides, I know Dallas, like I know Chicago....
Minnesota is new and I hate getting lost...
Who can tell I'm in a state of confusion?

I never had to live in a shelter, so why would I make my child live in one?
I lived in the projects, but I would never want my child to live in them.

Why is it that people confess their sins to me, as if I am the MOST HIGH?
This past weekend, 2 of my homies, told me everything about everything.
Its so sad, the way they have been living.
What's even worst, is the way karma comes and gets your ass....

That's why I live my life without causing hurt or pain to others.
Matters of the heart (dick and pussy) don't count.
My homeboy said he'd rather be lied to and sent off, than told the truth.
Therefore, I'll never tell....
I'll tell you the truth only if you can handle it. Well he told me he couldn't handle it, so there...

These 2 homeboys that confided in me, I feel their lives are coming to an end...
Sad to say, but I am very intuitive and that's what I see for their futures.

How come I can't see my own future?

GOD, what did I do wrong? What did I do to deserve this?

I've never stolen, I don't mess with married men, shitting on the union you brought together. I've never killed a man, I don't lie and I keep it real with myself.

Where did I go wrong?
What are you trying to show me?
Where are you leading me? Tell me, I will follow.


Now how did I end up with PCC this weekend?
I'll tell you, I was drunk, bored, and looking around at all the other people getting ready to get their groove on. My homeboy can't get it, so I called what was familiar to me. Shockingly, my car made it from Maywood to the SouthSide. Shockingly, I made it, being drunk and all.

Why is PCC tryna get me pregnant? After all these years, he decides to do this on this night...What I look like having 2 babies? 2 babies with father's in prision?
GOD, you know I promised to never kill an innocent soul, but look at me now?
I guess I jinxed myself, when I was talking to my girl and I told her I would have his baby...
I didn't mention under what circumstances, but I guess I spoke it into existence.
It was like PCC heard that conversation and acted on it...MuthaFUCKA!!
I pray his crippled ass got crippled semen...

Well Folks...

Looks like I'll be gracing Chicago with my presence for a little while longer. Shit happens, so on to plan B...anywhoo...I don't feel like writing about depressing shit, so on a lighter note...

My sweetie, Missy aka Negropino or Papi Princess, sent me my horoscope reading. Anyone that knows me knows, I am into astrology. There's a lot of truth in it...some may disagree and not believe in the signs. But hey, I do, and this my shit so...

Thanks Missy!!!(smooches)

Aquarius Feb. 11

positive:kinky lover (very much so),confident parent(yes), unselfish(yes, if I got it and you cool with me, we all got it)

negative: unpredictable( I didn't think being unpredicatble is negative?? I love that Jaime Foxx song), perverse lover (perverse as in my foot fetish...*lol*) a penchant for menage a trois( I can't agree with this one...not saying I wouldn't but I want my man to myself...even though thats long shot)

Word to the wise: dont try to control the Aquarius cuz they will simply disappear...(I couldn't agree more!!)

• Engaging and entertaining-never a dull moment (You would have to ask my peeps...hey sometimes I'm just laid back, not saying much, watching the enviroment. Generally I am outgoing, but I get in my moods...)
• Unique approach to life. Lives life as she sees fit, not what others think (Absolutely!!! Let me do me while you do you!)
• Doesn't like self centered men, or men that like to brag, or materialistic men(Ewww, you can't be more self absorbed than I am...but I do mine on the low low...*lol* Just kidding...but yes, please don't try to impress me with your diamonds, rims, car or clothes..that don't make the man....Matter of fact, I don't like anyone who brags or who's materialistic....include women in this as well...I won't be a bitch friend if thats all she talks about is what this nigga did for her and that one...)
• Being an AIR sign means you are magician. Now u see her now u don't. (Missy likes this one, but its so true. One week we may be kickin it strong, then the next week, I'm MIA...I get in my moods...*lol*)
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• This AIR sign is slim, with long shapely legs and hair cut SHORT or worn in different styles( Ok, I'm short so my legs aren't long, but my mom says I do have long legs, to be short, because I have a short torso....of course my hair is short...I look better with it short...but I do wear it in all different styles...People always tell me that they never see me with the same hair style twice....thats a lie, but I did win best hair senior year in HighSchool for this reason alone...)
• Trendy stylish dresser ( I wouldn't consider my style of dress trendy, I keep it simple, I don't rock labels, only sneakers with labels or perfume. But I do me, which is what no one else is doing...I hate looking like everybody and they mama)
• Mate needs to understand her needs before she tells him....he's gotta be PYSCHIC. ( I wouldn't say that. However, I do tell my mate to be completely honest, I can handle the truth and as long as, my mate can handle the truth, there will be no need for guessing. I don't have time to play games and if I'm with you I want you to know and understand me.)
  
• Demanding but gives back 150%..her husband will be pleasantly PLEASED( I do tend to give more than my all to my mate....to the point where I think I'm being taken advantage of...but I look at it like this. I if I want to do it, I will do it, not expecting anything in return. However, I would like for a mofo to do the same for me.)
• Creative(I've heard that...)
• Loves weaves, contacts, multiple body piercings and tattoos. (Wrong one, thats not me at all. I pride myself on not wearing weaves, I hate contacts and yall know how I feel about tatts and piercings, it will make me look ghetto. )
  
• Constant target of jealous people. ("I KNOW YOU SEE IT!" I'm glad some one said this....I thought I was crazy or something. I can't even hang with girls to tough, cause thats what they be on. We're all beautiful women, don't hate on me, cause I'm the first to congratulate...DANG...)
  
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• Has a lot going on. (When I'm in the mood to be out and about and in the world.)
• Elusive (Yes, very poignant and very true. That's why I guess I'm single...and people think I'm crazy*lol*)
  
• Aloof. Friendly but distant. (I got to have something to myself. I'm very cordial, but at the same time, I'm not just immediately putting a person in my circle. Hell, I'm in the process of eliminating my circle. So thats whats up. Aloof, yea, I'm a bit detached, but hell, can't put all your feelings into one thing...*lol*)
• Goes with the flow (Keep It Moving...)
• Intriguing (You would have to ask others if they think I am. I'm just me)
• Hard to keep up with. ( I don't know what that means. Sexually? yes this may be true...*lol* One of my scatterbrain moments...Yes, true so true, only another scatterbrain would be able to follow me...*lol* Tryna kick it...If I'm in kicking mode, I keeps it moving so that may also be true...)
• Looking for the next adventure. (Thats funny!!)
• Known for saying "When I feel like it...." or "I KNOW"(I added this one on my own)
  

I am compatible with...

ARIES-(Best buddies and sex comes into play sometimes but not the main focus)

GEMINI- (When they not being bipolar...I swear Gemini's need to say on them meds...*lol*)

LIBRA-if I can sit still long enough..(whatever that means, I can sit still, I'm a single mother...I have no choice sometimes.)

SCORPIOS-better off friends......can still have sex..but no relationship(Never had one and don't want one. Too possesive..)

PISCES- will take you to new sexual peak (If you count him pissing on himself, I guess, I never had that happen before...but other than that, it was normal...nothing spectacular)

SAGITTARIUS PERFECT....(mmmm, I already know...)

Random

I'm horny...I thought I wasn't having sex no more, but I might as well get some before I go, right?

I'm nervous...I got butterlies in my stomach. This will be our first time...

I can't wait to kick it tonight... He will be there, so I guess that will ease the nervousness for later on tonight.

I'm not boguish...I know I've known my homeboy for some years now and he's helped me financially in the past, but I don't feel him like that. Should I just say, I like him, not you. Yes he's getting some before I go, but you can't and you're not?

I'm sooooo anxious...Meet me at 11:30 I love it when you talkin dirty...

Why?...Am I now just finding someone on my level and I'm leaving. He's perfect, great combo of hood and intellect. Can switch it up....he does have 3 kids, but I met the BM and she cool. No BM dramma. But thats a lot of kids..right? Well Kaeven loves playing with them, so maybe I just won't have to have anymore...

I fall in love to easily...Why am I thinking of the future with him already? Thats crazy, but I tend to do that.

I don't think its love....Just last month I swore I loved Puddy, PCC. Now, I don't even think about them. I'm not even tryna see them before I leave. But they are Virgos and he's a Sag.
Sags and Aquarians click!

I'm so horny...I said that alrady, but I am. I'm so horny my stomach has butterflies while my coochie is tingling...*lol*

I can't believe I'm leaving....Reality will set once I'm in that car driving north.

I'm not gone cry either...Why should I? That doesn't mean the tears won't roll involuntarily while I'm driving.

I'm so upset...My cousin somes home from Iraq at the end of this month...I love him so!! I want to see him, but I will be gone!!! DAMMIT, hopefully, maybe I can come back to see him or something.


What should I wear tonight? A short skirt and some sneakers or a dress and heels? I think I want to wear some sneakers, just in case we gotta run or something..*lol*

I hate packing...But once I got going I didn't want to stop...I'm almost done and organized, I'll do the rest tomorrow cause I'mma have my mama help me with the rest....

What if his stuff is really good? I'm gone be in the Twin Cities feenin...thats not good. But hell, I been feenin this long...jaggin off thinking about him. I told him too...

I hope all goes as planned once I get to Minnesota!!!

BTW, this will be my last post for a while....I might do audioposts for a while, like Hassan...*lol*

First Time for Everything...

WOW, I can honestly, wholeheartedly say, Chi City will be missed to the fullest. I must say, my last week here has been one to go down in the books. I've done so much shit I ain't never done before, and I doubt I would've had this much fun kickin it with Southsiders...*lol* FORREAL, the WestSide kicks it hard!!

Saturday was my first time going to a pajama party. Therefore, this was my first time going outside, halfway naked, literally. I wore a black corset with white lace trimming with the matching panties(they were like boyshorts). Hold up, thats not all...*lol* I got a piece of black lace from the fabric store to wrap around my ass and a fur stole, just to enter the party. Once inside, I traded the stole for my white feather boa and I was stunting hard on everybody. I even made me a goblet(pimp cup) with my name on it.....I ended up leaving cause it was too many niggas and not enough hoes...and too many niggas was on the kid...
BTW, niggas are so nasty, I told them I was on my period, and they still was trying to hit....disgusting!!!

Monday, I went to my mother's house and we did each others hair. Now, she wants to be there for me. She will help me pack and get my rental car, I think she's planning to even follow me there. I love my mother....

While I was at her house, I decided to stop avoiding PCC, so I had him to ride down on me at my mom's house. I hollered at him for a minute. He was like, "Baby, I thought you left me." We fondled one another, kissed and hugged. I'm still not giving him none before I go....

I asked Kaeven, for the first time, "What do you want to be when you grow up?". He ponders, as he scratches his head, after a few seconds, he responds, "I want to be a man when I grow up." I couldn't help but to laugh, because his answer was great and well thought out...*lol* I then ask him, "What is a man?" to which he replies, "A man does work, whups the kids, and does whatever he wants to do." I laugh again. GREAT ANSWER. But when I asked him what job he wants, he said he wants to be a policeman. Crazy, cause he is scared of the police.

Last night, I kicked it with my guys, one of which I've grown to love. Its crazy, he's not that attractive, but to me, he's the finest nigga ever. I call him "Budd" from the Cosby show, thats who he looks like. I think I fell in love, when I called him and his voicemail answered. All you hear is some caucasian man..."Greetings"...who in the hell says "Greetings"? I thought I had the wrong number for a moment. But just to know he got enough game to switch it up like that, turns me so on.....Besides, he's funny as hell and cool. But why oh why, are all the ones I want already taken?

Last night, was my first time in life ever riding on a motorcycle. I always said I would never get on one cause I done seen a nigga dead, smashed between a building and a van, cause he was on a bike. CripWalk, aka PCC, got his name cause he was crippled, he was supposed to be paralyzed, from riding a bike. But I guess I got some heart due to the Hennessy, although, I told the guy not to do any wheelies or go too fast, or take me on the e-way(expressway). He obliged and I had a great time. I had the most fun when he did go a bit fast. Now I want a bike!!!...*lol*

Speaking of heart, my son has a lot of it. I always worry about Kaeven not being around boys or men and always being around me. Even though I teach him how to box, but still, a woman can't teach a boy to be a man. But he really made me proud last night. Budd has 3 sons, 7 and two 6 year olds. So naturally, they fight amongst themselves, all the time. Keep in mind Kae is only 4. Anywho....Budd starts the kids to fighting. He tells all the younger children to jump on the oldest one, and Kaeven was bout it! He held his ground. I was proud of him. That nigga gotta lot of heart, he fought til the end....I ain't gone lie, the 7 year old can fight his ass off, but Kaeven never gave up. He even started beating up the other kids, he was just hitting whoever was in sight. He gave the 6 year old some go, even made him cry...*lol*

Other than that, I need to start packing, but I tend to wait til the last fuckin minute. I don't feel like packing. When I moved out West, I didn't start packing til the day of the move. I guess I'll start Friday...*lol*

I HATE: (Inspired by Eclectik Relaxation)

When I tell people something is wrong with my car, then they ask me "Whats wrong with yo car?" DUMB ASS, don't you think if I knew I would fix it?

When nothing ass niggas approach me to holla, when I have the stank, "Don't try to holla at me" face....

When I tell male suitors, I'm leaving in a week and they say "We can kick it until then"...Nigga why??? I know you don't think you gone fuck...Get thee hence....Thanks Insanity...*lol*

When a man can't feign interest in anything else other than sex. I know men think about sex all day....at least feign like there's more to you than sex...GEEZ...

When people throw salt on any and everybody they encounter. Don't you have anything else to blog about? Are you so miserable you only find solace in talking bad about people? Get thee hence...*lol*

The fact that my mom, had my aunt to call me, to say, its cool if I stay with her. Why didn't she call to tell me this? The only reason you're opening up your home to me now is because, you see that someone else's mother, care more than you do.

When people call my phone. Text me, I hate talking on the phone. I can't see your eyes anyway. At least I can see the words and read between the lines.

When people call and don't leave a message. Obviously, you ain't want shit, cause you would've left a friggin message.


Over zealous religious folk. Don't tell them you aren't religious but spirtual. Now they think you are the anti-Christ. These folk will impose their religion on you. Do what makes you happy and I'll do what works for me, okay?

Living with other people. I hope this is only temporary, cause I can't stand it. Living under the same roof as someone with their own set of rules and regulations.

Niggas. Nique explains this one for me. (http://uncutdope.blogspot.com/)

Bills. Why does everything have a price? I thought this was the land of the free?

Telemarketers. My minutes ain't free. I thought this was a job offer. I'm hanging up now....

Not having a job right now. I'm tired of reading these damn blogs...*lol* Just kidding.

Nasty women. Clean up your house. I know you keep a dirty house, cause your clothes smell like a dirty house.

Nasty men. Clean up your house. Why did you invite me over here knowing the way it looks and smells? Take me home....

People who think you owe them something. I owe you nothing.

When people laugh at your misfortunes...

Going into Walgreens for 2 items, pads and tampons and coming out with back heating pads, batteries, candy, and toys for Kaeven....

People who beg. Get yo Felicia ass up outta here....(Felicia from Friday)

How these people next door party every GOTDAMN night. I'm glad I'm not working cause I wouldn't get a wink of sleep.

How these girls out west dress. They wear they pajamas outside, little ass pajama shorts with they ass hanging out the bottom. The worse part about it, they pajamas be dirty ass hell...I didn't mention, they under 17....

How everybody out west is poppin them E pills. That shit is not real. That is some heroin, cocaine, or mesaline(used to make animals infertile).

How I didn't get the "Top Flight Security of the World, Craig" job, not cause of my piss being dirty, but because of my credit. Like my dad said, "Those cocksuckits..."...*lol*
I'm done with my hate list for now. I'll do a I LOVE: list soon.